JFL I am so fucked up right now

[bigantennaemay1]

i wageslaved, took a nap, and now im thinking about stuck up whores and raging

I begin my weekly wageslaving tomorrow. But that's future-me's problem.

 

[bigantennaemay1]

Nothing can compare to that golden moment when you reach the peak, the great numbing washes over and everything is alright, a feeling so beautiful I wish I knew sooner.

Same, bro. I didn't start eating edibles/using weed until I was about 29/30. Didn't even have my first drink until I was 23. This would have helped so much, so many years ago, when I was struggling with severe depression in my first round through college, when I was inexperienced and had no methods for controlling and living with my depression.

At least I have it now, so I can't complain too much.

 

[bigantennaemay1]

Drinking is quite possibly the most comfy experience I have ever had, in that golden moment all barriers diminish and existence is tolerable, everything you enjoy has a new layer of sheen applied, films, reading and music all become amplified.

I started late too, if I knew the effects of consuming the juice was this great I would have consumed and the school experience would have resulted in a much more enjoyable time.

I have taken a break from it for a while, due to kidney pains and tolerance issues, I like drinking cider when I watch films but the law of diminishing returns becomes apparent when I drink whisky.

I don't get to drink hard liquor often, so I definitely get to enjoy the few times I do indulge in it.

Weed, on the other hand, I use a couple times per week. I'm trying not to destroy my enjoyment of the drug, by elevating my tolerance toward it, but it's just such a good way of coping with my shitty life, I just cna't help it.

 

[The Enforcer]

relatesme

 

[bigantennaemay1]

relatesme

I just do whatever numbs the pain, man.

 

[The Enforcer]

I just do whatever numbs the pain, man.

tbhngl

 

[bigantennaemay1]

It is annoying when your source of comfy becomes lessened with over consumption, it is necessary to rest and recover so you can maintain and continue surfing.

Indeed, it is much easier maintained with a focus on balance and moderation, but it is annoying that the only true escape from the pain of loneliness has to be regulated so heavily.

 

[Khanivore]

Indeed, it is much easier maintained with a focus on balance and moderation, but it is annoying that the only true escape from the pain of loneliness has to be regulated so heavily.

Go to sleep, friend

 

[bigantennaemay1]

Go to sleep, friend

Not yet. The night is still young, and my liver does not yet resemble swiss cheese.

 

[Khanivore]

The horror of existence presented in its purest form, no tangible escape, no obfuscation, just little bread crumbs of catharsis.

@decembrist_kirillov seems pretty russian

 

[bigantennaemay1]

The horror of existence presented in its purest form, no tangible escape, no obfuscation, just little bread crumbs of catharsis.

It's never enough.

 

[Linesnap99]

its brutal.

 

[bigantennaemay1]

its brutal.

Only once sobriety comes back.

 

[Khanivore]

Those that know, know, everyone else who skates on by without a thought pertaining to the abomination that is existence are the ones living it with involuntary blinders, lucky for them.


It will never be enough, a constant variable that one must come to terms with.


The cosmic anomaly that is this existence is brutal beyond conception.

Nah, @decembrist_kirillov , no russian, just random pretentious guy

Or high af