I am severely depressed. Help me get through the next 2 years at least

[NegroKing]

Suicide is inevitable but I need to make it through the next year or two at the very minimum. I can't get into why but as much as I'd love to just end it now I can't. I have responsibilities to other people that I have to take care of first.

So what do I do? I'm in college. Classes are going to be a grind. I have no idea what I want to do career wise-I just know I want to die. How the fuck do I make it?

 

[JovanD]

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Tell me if anything there even remotely interested you?
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[a-virgin-nigger]

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[idkwattodowithlife]

Knowing that life is nothing, but cope.

The only thing left is to find a new cope to keep your mind busy from some certain things, but of course you'll still feel like shit, and nothing in life is 100% guaranteed.

 

[Battlefield3cel]

Quit college. Go overseas. Bang whores. Drink, smoke

 

[maybethrowed]

what do you owe anyone else? even if they've done something for you, there is no obligation on your part to endure being a failure. you had no control over the life you were given. you had no control over how people treated you. you had no control over most of your misfortune. you have control over whether or not it continues. fuck whoever you think is worthy of your misery, they're not. do what many of us are too cowardly to do and get it over with. no more pain. can you imagine no more pain?

 

[anon_899]

Exercising helps with my suicidal thoughts, and vidya, lots of vidya

 

[AsiaCel]

Have you tried meds? Prozac suppressed my suicidER thoughts since I started taking it.

 

[catfishman23]

I suggest anti depressants. They have saved my life.
Please take them.

 

[Deleted member 236]

If you have to wait two years and have responsibilities, you should take out life insurance. Two years is the period you have to wait for a payout. You can get megabucks (6 figures) for small monthly payments.

 

[universallyabhorred]

I am in the same position as you so I have no advice. Unlike you I do not even have the means to ensure suicide or I would happily follow through.

 

[nausea]

I am in the same position as you so I have no advice. Unlike you I do not even have the means to ensure suicide or I would happily follow through.

yes and meds do not solve loneliness...

go to a psychiatrist anyway

 

[universallyabhorred]

I am in the same position as you so I have no advice. Unlike you I do not even have the means to ensure suicide or I would happily follow through.

yes and meds do not solve loneliness...
go to a psychiatrist anyway

I am seeing a psychiatrist but I am not properly taking the medication due to sleep issues which would be further worsened by it.

 

[nausea]

I am seeing a psychiatrist but I am not properly taking the medication due to sleep issues which would  be further worsened by it.

I am under drugs from ages now

jfl at life

 

[NegroKing]

I am in the same position as you so I have no advice. Unlike you I do not even have the means to ensure suicide or I would happily follow through.

I don’t have the means either. But 1-2 years is plenty of time to figure something out I hope.

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I suggest anti depressants. They have saved my life.
Please take them.

I was on those before but it was more for anxiety. They didn’t help at all with that and the thing is I don’t want the suit urges to I don’t disappear just be more manageable until I decide it’s tome.

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what do you owe anyone else? even if they've done something for you, there is no obligation on your part to endure being a failure. you had no control over the life you were given. you had no control over how people treated you. you had no control over most of your misfortune. you have control over whether or not it continues. fuck whoever you think is worthy of your misery, they're not. do what many of us are too cowardly to do and get it over with. no more pain. can you imagine no more pain?

You are so right but at the same time you don’t understand how much my parents love me. Even though it was they who ruined my life they don’t deserve the pain if I die. It’s too awful yet for me to continue living mean I would be the one holding that agony. It’s damned if you do damned if you don’t.

 

[Deleted member 60]

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lmao

 

[catfishman23]

I don’t have the means either. But 1-2 years is plenty of time to figure something out I hope.

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I was on those before but it was more for anxiety. They didn’t help at all with that and the thing is I don’t want the suit urges to I don’t disappear just be more manageable until I decide it’s tome.

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You are so right but at the same time you don’t understand how much my parents love me. Even though it was they who ruined my life they don’t deserve the pain if I die. It’s too awful yet for me to continue living mean I would be the one holding that agony. It’s damned if you do damned if you don’t.

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The one's I'm taking is helping me man.
Trust me if you take the ones I'm taking you will
Be fine.

 

[NegroKing]

The one's I'm taking is helping me man.
Trust me if you take the ones I'm taking you will
Be fine.

Which antidepressants are you talking about?

 

[A Good Friend]

I suggest anti depressants. They have saved my life.
Please take them.

This

Finding good medical care, like most shit, is a grind. There are sympathetic ears in the community. It was trial and error and some stuff can make the depression worse, but some eventually do help.

My advice to OP is to not take any of our advice. Find a doctor who has time to understand that you want a life worth living. It won't be easy, and he might decide pills are not for you, but you have to trust the process.

 

[Captain-Nutsack]

You should maybe consider seeing professional psychologist if you really are experiencing suicidal thoughts. I'm really sorry man.

 

[NegroKing]

This

Finding good medical care, like most shit, is a grind. There are sympathetic ears in the community. It was trial and error and some stuff can make the depression worse, but some eventually do help.

My advice to OP is to not take any of our advice. Find a doctor who has time to understand that you want a life worth living. It won't be easy, and he might decide pills are not for you, but you have to trust the process.

The thing is though I don't want a life worth living. I'll never have one. I just want to get through the next year or two.

 

[A Good Friend]

This
Finding good medical care, like most shit, is a grind. There are sympathetic ears in the community. It was trial and error and some stuff can make the depression worse, but some eventually do help.
My advice to OP is to not take any of our advice. Find a doctor who has time to understand that you want a life worth living. It won't be easy, and he might decide pills are not for you, but you have to trust the process.

The thing is though I don't want a life worth living. I'll never have one. I just want to get through the next year or two.

Getting through the next two years will be a hell of a lot easier if you are actually okay with waking up in the morning. Trust me. It boils down to a quality of life issue.

 

[NegroKing]

Getting through the next two years will be a hell of a lot easier if you are actually okay with waking up in the morning. Trust me. It boils down to a quality of life issue.

You're right dude. I'm going to go see my old psychiatrist. I'm screwing up my grades.

 

[lostcel]

litsen man, i know u dont wanna hear this but of course im gonna say it anyway, don't end it bro, even though it might be hard you can get through it and still enjoy things in life, stop focusing so much on chicks, you seem like a really nice guy to me honestly and not an angry one i dont want you to go bro, if you need to do so take anti depressents

you have an all or nothing mindset right now, you either want it all or nothing at all, you can still live a happy life if you just let go, you need to train yourself to stop looking at the negative, like the other guys said, bang whores, drink, smoke, live life how u wanna life it, get a career so u can stay busy and keep ur mind off this shit and finance ur whores and drink/drugs, etc, who knows u might even find a girl one day, but u'll never know if u end it now, i dont want such a nice guy as you to end it man

 

[Ninjutsu_Enthusiast]

Whoremaxxing is the way to go