SuicideFuel I am like a stinking vermin rat

[Incelist]

I am a filthy vermin rat.

I stink. I smell of sweat. I wear the same shirt for days at a time. My shirt smells like rotting flesh, the flakes of dead skin that fall off over time. The dead skin gets emeshed in my shirt, along with the sweat and body liquids.


No one wants to be around me. I see people look at me funny. I see people glance at me.

My parents do not think about me. They are indifferent towards me. They likely hate me.

One time, I was brutally assaulted and sustained a brain injury. My parents did not bother to visit me in the hospital. My parents live 10 minutes away from the hospital, and I called them over 20 times, but they did not bother to visit.

After that, I gave up on life. Their is no point in living when all you are is a gutter rat, a stinking vermin who should not be around people.

I look down when I walk. A vermin like me should not make eye contact.

I may be a human only in the scientific definition. In actuality, I am closer to a stinking rat.

If I die, no one will care.

 

[zd60]

Basically exactly how I am and how I feel, no one has ever cared about me and no one ever will I just hope death comes soon so that the misery can end

 

[antisocialcel]

 

[Darth Aquarius]

Jesus this is brutal. Maybe I shouldn’t complain as much…

 

[Emba]

Whatever you say James Bolivar deGriz

 

[Incelist]

Basically exactly how I am and how I feel, no one has ever cared about me and no one ever will I just hope death comes soon so that the misery can end

Even your parents?

 

[zd60]

Even your parents?

yup, my dad disowned me before my birth and sits in prison, and my mother couldn't care less about me

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

nah that's me

 

[Incelist]

yup, my dad disowned me before my birth and sits in prison, and my mother couldn't care less about me

For me it is the parent's hate that is the most painful.

 

[Incelist]

If I commit suicide literally no one will care. By brother and sister both each over $100,000 each, and they literally don't care about me.

 

[zd60]

For me it is the parent's hate that is the most painful.

I felt the same for quite sometime, I guess i've just eventually got over it became numb to it

 

[Incelist]

I felt the same for quite sometime, I guess i've just eventually got over it became numb to it

Does it actually go away? I cannot get over the fact that they hate me so much. Were you able to overcome it?

 

[zd60]

Does it actually go away? I cannot get over the fact that they hate me so much. Were you able to overcome it?

I don't know if I want to say it actually fully goes away but you do become more and more numb to it over time at least it has for me, the more time that goes on the less I think about it

 

[poorenglishcel]

Jesus this is brutal. Maybe I shouldn’t complain as much…

Yeah it's brutal man. At least my parents care about me.

 

[Grodd]

Fucking brutal

 

[Jar Jar Binks]

This is insanely brutal and sad

I don't mean to sound like an IT fag but at least keep yourself clean for your own sake. You might feel more fresh and motivated to at least keep living a little longer

If you stay on this current path you will rope sooner rather than later and I wouldn't want you gone brocel

Maybe you are a sewer rat to normies and society, but to us, you are a brother and comrade

Why were you assaulted btw? Was it some random aggravated homeless negro?

 

[RandomGuy]

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[Incelist]

This is insanely brutal and sad

I don't mean to sound like an IT fag but at least keep yourself clean for your own sake. You might feel more fresh and motivated to at least keep living a little longer

If you stay on this current path you will rope sooner rather than later and I wouldn't want you gone brocel

Maybe you are a sewer rat to normies and society, but to us, you are a brother and comrade

Why were you assaulted btw? Was it some random aggravated homeless negro?

Not sure, but it was a mad person, I got a brain injury which was made worse because no one helped me after I left the hospital.

 

[Incelist]

I don't know if I want to say it actually fully goes away but you do become more and more numb to it over time at least it has for me, the more time that goes on the less I think about it

Yes, when I think about how much my parents hate me I become nauseous. I literally become dizzy. I have to lie down to comprehend.

I called my parents over 20 times and they picked up and just put the phone down and told me to wait I cannot comprehend this.

 

[Incelist]

When I think about the hate my stomach feels different.

 

[KING NOTHING]

One time, I was brutally assaulted and sustained a brain injury.

What happened?

 

[Incelist]

What happened?

Don't want to go into details it is bad. The fact that no one cared is worse.

 

[NEB.feelsdevil]

Fucking brutal

 

[ItsGoyOvrr428]

At this point you just have to go out and take as many foids with you as you can. It's the only way out.

 

[Vilsonicvs]

hey man don't rope please, people IRL may not care but we do, we care about you and don't want to see you go brocel. You should start taking care of and washing yourself, I really hope you get better. I assume you have a job?(since you live without your parents), what is it?

 

[Incelist]

hey man don't rope please, people IRL may not care but we do, we care about you and don't want to see you go brocel. You should start taking care of and washing yourself, I really hope you get better. I assume you have a job?(since you live without your parents), what is it?

A janitor level job, I sweep. It’s a fitting job.

I feel completely isolated and out of place. Not even my family wants to see me. I won’t rope because I cope on books and AI hope, but life is grey and bleak for sure. I might have to rope if I get a disease because no one will help. It is just evolution, nothing more

 

[Vilsonicvs]

A janitor level job, I sweep. It’s a fitting job.

I feel completely isolated and out of place. Not even my family wants to see me. I won’t rope because I cope on books and AI hope, but life is grey and bleak for sure. I might have to rope if I get a disease because no one will help. It is just evolution, nothing more

have you thought of meeting people irl to get friends? maybe that could make you feel less lonely? I heard bars are a good place for that.

 

[Incelist]

have you thought of meeting people irl to get friends? maybe that could make you feel less lonely? I heard bars are a good place for that.

Yeah I talk to people at work and stuff. They are friendly but that’s it. I was abused as a child and I don’t have any social skills. I do talk but that’s all