I have done that many times before. Eventually I always come back to this sad bee nest that is our community (first time in incels.is but i used to reddit). You will swallow the blue pill, tell yourself to "do something positive"...you will join the gym, improve your eating, get better clothes.....while telling yourself that "this time will be different, because this time you do it for you, not to be attractive" . Little by little you will notice how all your new goals...whatever they may be, revolve around the one you claim to have forsaken...get a girl.
- I always wanted to play an instrument -> you want to be the guy at parties with the guitar, the one who gets laid
- I go to the gym to be healthy -> you go to the gym like everybody else, to look good.
- I will read more, get more conventional entertainment -> you will notice how once the veil of society has been lifted, it is hard for you to relate to their shit.
Eventually you will notice how unfair it is that, despite all the effort you put, a guy who has to put zero effort, but is attractive, is the one who gets laid. Sure that guy will think he puts effort...but you will know the truth...and that truth will unleash your desire to join us again.