jeetcel
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imagine your own father turning situations in such a way that long term effect turned into your inceldom
so here is my story,
i live in a very old fashioned suburban area which is famous for its fisheries industries in eastern side of India, born into a very lower middle class (borderline poor) family as their youngest child, father is a boomer who never bothered to game and win in his life when there was a chance in his youth in past; but after economic conditions and realities started going 180 degree he started working-got married-borne us siblings-started family etc whatever;
so when my time arrived for college etc i wanted to become a programmer (or for lack of better words, an itkoolie) because back in my youth IT was in rising phase here and many young people could get easy buxxs by working in it - except my cockblocking father did not want me to do it BECAUSE, well, he compared salaries of a cousin of mine in IT with his cousin (an uncle of mine) doing engineering; and found out IT guy was earning much less than his cousin; so he forcefully threw me into a kind of specialisation that i didn't want to do over his ego and "trust me you'll earn more"
by the time i could finish my college things changed massively as first time we got a nationwide stable internet with 4G mobile internet being introduced here at big scale - while your "core engineering" branches like mechanical, electrical, civil, automobile engineering etc progressed very slowly; and it all showed up in job market as well like so so many "core branch engineers" roaming jobless due to overwhemingly high supply over demand while IT guys could get it easily at one place or other and start "gaming" with life etc
and that's exactly how i got left behind, because my father who just didn't allow me to sail on that IT wave here and forcefully threw me into electrical and electronics engineering; that cousin of mine is earning about 75000 US dollars worth of monies every year while i barely make 300 dollars worth of monies per month (3600 some dollars per year) that's quite low in this era of rising inflations - and it also shows in realities between us two, my IT working cousin is married with two kids while i could never get a chance with ladies owning to my financial realities
i know this all could sound so strange for a non-indian person but trust me it is quite frustrating for me that my father didn't allow me to pursue my career as per my interests but thrusted his preferences over me; i often get thoughts over it like "If only he allowed me to pursue IT..." whenever some money related matter happens; or whenever i get asked 'why i am still not settled in life' while many of my friends are already married, having kids etc...
i even have had verbal arguments-fights over it with him and he always shrugs it with "i only made that decision with good intentions" or "back then core engineering was much profitable hence..." or "i'm your father why would i harm you..."
i dunno for how long i would be able to continue as this brain rot is slowly taking over my subconscious, i get dreams over that "if only he allowed me.." part and so;
working in my current field and getting consant exposure to high flashing weldings etc also affected my eyes in bad way like more than often i feel they are dried up, likewise the kind of industrial noise that occurs at my workplace lots of thuds and so is affecting hearing in my left ear...commuting to that place (and from there to back home) is a daily hell of its own and i often feel like it's unfulfilling work for the kind of peanuts i get for salary, and yes no wife yet because no stability in life no monies and so
why do boomers do such things with their kids
so here is my story,
i live in a very old fashioned suburban area which is famous for its fisheries industries in eastern side of India, born into a very lower middle class (borderline poor) family as their youngest child, father is a boomer who never bothered to game and win in his life when there was a chance in his youth in past; but after economic conditions and realities started going 180 degree he started working-got married-borne us siblings-started family etc whatever;
so when my time arrived for college etc i wanted to become a programmer (or for lack of better words, an itkoolie) because back in my youth IT was in rising phase here and many young people could get easy buxxs by working in it - except my cockblocking father did not want me to do it BECAUSE, well, he compared salaries of a cousin of mine in IT with his cousin (an uncle of mine) doing engineering; and found out IT guy was earning much less than his cousin; so he forcefully threw me into a kind of specialisation that i didn't want to do over his ego and "trust me you'll earn more"
by the time i could finish my college things changed massively as first time we got a nationwide stable internet with 4G mobile internet being introduced here at big scale - while your "core engineering" branches like mechanical, electrical, civil, automobile engineering etc progressed very slowly; and it all showed up in job market as well like so so many "core branch engineers" roaming jobless due to overwhemingly high supply over demand while IT guys could get it easily at one place or other and start "gaming" with life etc
and that's exactly how i got left behind, because my father who just didn't allow me to sail on that IT wave here and forcefully threw me into electrical and electronics engineering; that cousin of mine is earning about 75000 US dollars worth of monies every year while i barely make 300 dollars worth of monies per month (3600 some dollars per year) that's quite low in this era of rising inflations - and it also shows in realities between us two, my IT working cousin is married with two kids while i could never get a chance with ladies owning to my financial realities
i know this all could sound so strange for a non-indian person but trust me it is quite frustrating for me that my father didn't allow me to pursue my career as per my interests but thrusted his preferences over me; i often get thoughts over it like "If only he allowed me to pursue IT..." whenever some money related matter happens; or whenever i get asked 'why i am still not settled in life' while many of my friends are already married, having kids etc...
i even have had verbal arguments-fights over it with him and he always shrugs it with "i only made that decision with good intentions" or "back then core engineering was much profitable hence..." or "i'm your father why would i harm you..."
i dunno for how long i would be able to continue as this brain rot is slowly taking over my subconscious, i get dreams over that "if only he allowed me.." part and so;
working in my current field and getting consant exposure to high flashing weldings etc also affected my eyes in bad way like more than often i feel they are dried up, likewise the kind of industrial noise that occurs at my workplace lots of thuds and so is affecting hearing in my left ear...commuting to that place (and from there to back home) is a daily hell of its own and i often feel like it's unfulfilling work for the kind of peanuts i get for salary, and yes no wife yet because no stability in life no monies and so
why do boomers do such things with their kids
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