sinclair_silence
The Melcel
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Many of my posts on this site have concerned my preference/fixation with Asian women. But as of late this seems to be receding. I still think Asians are attractive, but I am now starting to be just as interested in white women. This may sound schizo (and it is), but the realization of this has actually been causing me distress. Because having the Asian preference gave me a goal, something to aim for—a vision that was more specific than it was general. And I like having defined goals, even if they are not realistic. This is how I operate in all facets of life (such as academics), not just concerning my "dating life" (if you could call it that).
I've just realized that the Asian fixation is becoming an anachronistic LARP and I can't lie to myself anymore—it doesn't feel as real as it once was. As much as I have slandered "shallow sorority Stacys" in favor of "neotenous intelligent Asians" I admit that there is great appeal in both categories. And honestly these sweeping generalizations were never fully accurate to begin with.
As an autistic/OCD mentalcel, my chances are not good anywhere. But if I can accept that it's time to broaden my horizons, maybe I will have a better probability of ascending. This was in the works for a while. I remember postingabout a slander thread about Olivia Dunne (white Instagram model) a while back, but that was just an avenue to channel my repressed admiration.
I'll be the first to admit that this is very ridiculous (hence the JFL tag). But I just needed to get this off my chest and I thought a good place to start would be being honest with my brocels.
I've just realized that the Asian fixation is becoming an anachronistic LARP and I can't lie to myself anymore—it doesn't feel as real as it once was. As much as I have slandered "shallow sorority Stacys" in favor of "neotenous intelligent Asians" I admit that there is great appeal in both categories. And honestly these sweeping generalizations were never fully accurate to begin with.
As an autistic/OCD mentalcel, my chances are not good anywhere. But if I can accept that it's time to broaden my horizons, maybe I will have a better probability of ascending. This was in the works for a while. I remember posting
I'll be the first to admit that this is very ridiculous (hence the JFL tag). But I just needed to get this off my chest and I thought a good place to start would be being honest with my brocels.
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