Venting I am alone.

[sbccel]

Now, I will say, I do talk to normies on a regular basis. I’m in a few group chats, I would call them friend groups, but that’s the purpose of this message actually. They aren’t my friends, they literally CANNOT be my friends, and they haven’t been because I’m sub 5. In most if not all of these group chats, they talk about women, or unfortunately men in the foids I’m in groupchats with normies and foids in. I was in these groupchats to keep my veil up, code switching as I deemed it in my rumble video, to help me train to act normal. But then I realized something, when these normies and foids are in these groupchats talking about dating, sex life, etc. I’m excluded, and whenever they ask me about it, I don’t even tell them “oh I’m just looking for my person” anymore, I go into hour long rants about blackpill, and when I do, they just ignore me for the rest of the day, even when I show them the evidence of me being factually correct about the dating market and blah blah blah. And this is one my main focal points, I can’t lie to myself, or others forever. I can’t pretend to be what I’m not, I can’t pretend to be normal, shit, I can’t even pretend to be happy. These creatures live in a different world than I do, and they always will. Once you take off those rose colored glasses, and those noise cancelling headphones, you see the world for how shit it is, and you witness the shit that comes out of people’s mouths, and it makes you frustrated, extremely frustrated. These normies have always been like this, in a whole different world than me, they always had the opportunity of community, happiness, love, I don’t have that, and I will never have that. I lay here at 3:19AM, wondering why I act so normal in front of the same creatures that despise me for my existence, and the reason is, I was trained to do so. So instead of code switching. I’m going to do the exact goddamn opposite, I’m not bending, or breaking, I’m not conforming to anyone’s fucking rules. I’m being me, authentically, 100% of the time, in front of whoever and wherever. I have nothing to lose, my ability to form connections with others, especially now, is fading away and will soon be gone possibly by the middle of 2026.

 

[sbccel]

Now, I will say, I do talk to normies on a regular basis. I’m in a few group chats, I would call them friend groups, but that’s the purpose of this message actually. They aren’t my friends, they literally CANNOT be my friends, and they haven’t been because I’m sub 5. In most if not all of these group chats, they talk about women, or unfortunately men in the foids I’m in groupchats with normies and foids in. I was in these groupchats to keep my veil up, code switching as I deemed it in my rumble video, to help me train to act normal. But then I realized something, when these normies and foids are in these groupchats talking about dating, sex life, etc. I’m excluded, and whenever they ask me about it, I don’t even tell them “oh I’m just looking for my person” anymore, I go into hour long rants about blackpill, and when I do, they just ignore me for the rest of the day, even when I show them the evidence of me being factually correct about the dating market and blah blah blah. And this is one my main focal points, I can’t lie to myself, or others forever. I can’t pretend to be what I’m not, I can’t pretend to be normal, shit, I can’t even pretend to be happy. These creatures live in a different world than I do, and they always will. Once you take off those rose colored glasses, and those noise cancelling headphones, you see the world for how shit it is, and you witness the shit that comes out of people’s mouths, and it makes you frustrated, extremely frustrated. These normies have always been like this, in a whole different world than me, they always had the opportunity of community, happiness, love, I don’t have that, and I will never have that. I lay here at 3:19AM, wondering why I act so normal in front of the same creatures that despise me for my existence, and the reason is, I was trained to do so. So instead of code switching. I’m going to do the exact goddamn opposite, I’m not bending, or breaking, I’m not conforming to anyone’s fucking rules. I’m being me, authentically, 100% of the time, in front of whoever and wherever. I have nothing to lose, my ability to form connections with others, especially now, is fading away and will soon be gone possibly by the middle of 2026.

Note: these groupchats have foids in them on discord, they don’t know what I look like, thank god.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

There's no point in spending your whole life trying to fit in with people who never even considered you human to begin with.

 

[sbccel]

There's no point in spending your whole life trying to fit in with people who never even considered you human to begin with.

I agree. And I’m mad it took me this long to realize.

 

[Br007alDickP!ll]

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes, I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then, I walk alone

 

[sbccel]

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes, I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then, I walk alone

Bars

 

[XDFLAMEBOY]

Now, I will say, I do talk to normies on a regular basis. I’m in a few group chats, I would call them friend groups, but that’s the purpose of this message actually. They aren’t my friends, they literally CANNOT be my friends, and they haven’t been because I’m sub 5. In most if not all of these group chats, they talk about women, or unfortunately men in the foids I’m in groupchats with normies and foids in. I was in these groupchats to keep my veil up, code switching as I deemed it in my rumble video, to help me train to act normal. But then I realized something, when these normies and foids are in these groupchats talking about dating, sex life, etc. I’m excluded, and whenever they ask me about it, I don’t even tell them “oh I’m just looking for my person” anymore, I go into hour long rants about blackpill, and when I do, they just ignore me for the rest of the day, even when I show them the evidence of me being factually correct about the dating market and blah blah blah. And this is one my main focal points, I can’t lie to myself, or others forever. I can’t pretend to be what I’m not, I can’t pretend to be normal, shit, I can’t even pretend to be happy. These creatures live in a different world than I do, and they always will. Once you take off those rose colored glasses, and those noise cancelling headphones, you see the world for how shit it is, and you witness the shit that comes out of people’s mouths, and it makes you frustrated, extremely frustrated. These normies have always been like this, in a whole different world than me, they always had the opportunity of community, happiness, love, I don’t have that, and I will never have that. I lay here at 3:19AM, wondering why I act so normal in front of the same creatures that despise me for my existence, and the reason is, I was trained to do so. So instead of code switching. I’m going to do the exact goddamn opposite, I’m not bending, or breaking, I’m not conforming to anyone’s fucking rules. I’m being me, authentically, 100% of the time, in front of whoever and wherever. I have nothing to lose, my ability to form connections with others, especially now, is fading away and will soon be gone possibly by the middle of 2026.

Mogs me that you’re on group chats

 

[KetamineCel]

i'm kinda the same but i only have 2 “friends” if you could call them that i very rarely ever see, and might just give a text to every week or so, they’re the most boring people in the fucking world, they don’t wanna go out clubbing, they don't smoke, no drugs, no music festivals, i'm stuck with two NPC companions