if i study i cant focus because of my mind and fail so i resort to cheating
if ur not cheating ur not trying
cheating is as worthy as actually passing
when i play games i always lose
it dont matter, dont put urself down because of video games because they are meaningless
i know what u feel, im a csgo player my games are:
>win
>feels nothing
>loose
>day ruined
but if u take people who are like faceit lvl10 or fpl which is the top 0.01% and are just under pro players level, ask them whay they got from it they will say nothing but stress, they gained literally nothing from their (on average) 10k hours in the game which 60% of that time is spent practicing not actually playing
when i go outiside i get nervous and see other people live their lives while i fucking rot my life away in my room
i was in the same boat at some point in my life, feel like the whole world is watching and judging me
as cliche as this sound, u gotta get out of ur comfort zone
which means do things that u dont feel comfortable doing but are beneficial to u
start going out to fast food joints and restaurant filled with people ur age
the goal is not to make friends but to get comfortable around ppl ur age
the goal now is to practice for after high school
if u r planning to work out, which i highly recommend u
then dont join a gym, do mma, boxing, wrestleling or whatever contact sport u find fun
the goal is to interact, both socially and physically with other boys ur age
this will remove all the stiffness and awkwardness u have with ppl
also start softmaxxing (skincare, diet, good sleep pastern)
also start updating ur wardrobe, slowly buy new clothes, dont rush into or else u will end up with clothes that match
and dont be autistic about it, just dress with shit that fits and other ppl ur age wear
take this year to do these things and by next year, weather u going to uni, trade school or work, u r going to be more normie which will make ur life easier
and who knows maybe ud get a bitch
so this comes to the conclusion that i am a fucking genetic failure in this life and i cant wait to fucking die because my living is fucking pointless in this fucked up world
no
stop this shit
dont take the forum seriously lol
80% of shit said here (even by me) is basement dweller autism
u have ur whole life ahead of u
