I have realized how fake my friends were. Genuine friendships ended with my childhood.
After that these people just changed (you know what I mean).
I notice it, how they never invited me when they hang out, only maybe 1 time by month ago and when I was with them We never did anything interesting.
I realized how they let me in read or say no when I invited one of them to hang out.
I realize how I had months and months since the last time they messaged me.
I realize how I wasn't even in their wathsap groups.
I realize now much ignored I was, I realize how much times I tried to talk and no one responded.
I always felt like a ghost when I was with them, like if I wasn't there actually.
I realize how much they secretly used me as the joke of the group and disrespected me, just because I thought it was normal.
I always felt like they didn't treat me in the same way than the rest.
When I had Instagram I saw their posts, always having fun, but casually they didn't tell me they would hang out.
I realize how people who were supposed to be my friends since kindergarden never actually cared for me.
What I try to say: you probably won't have genuine friends as a sub 5 male, they probably make fun of you or you are a second class friend in the best of the cases, but you will never experience what a true friendship feels like.
Now I know I was never one of them.
After that these people just changed (you know what I mean).
I notice it, how they never invited me when they hang out, only maybe 1 time by month ago and when I was with them We never did anything interesting.
I realized how they let me in read or say no when I invited one of them to hang out.
I realize how I had months and months since the last time they messaged me.
I realize how I wasn't even in their wathsap groups.
I realize now much ignored I was, I realize how much times I tried to talk and no one responded.
I always felt like a ghost when I was with them, like if I wasn't there actually.
I realize how much they secretly used me as the joke of the group and disrespected me, just because I thought it was normal.
I always felt like they didn't treat me in the same way than the rest.
When I had Instagram I saw their posts, always having fun, but casually they didn't tell me they would hang out.
I realize how people who were supposed to be my friends since kindergarden never actually cared for me.
What I try to say: you probably won't have genuine friends as a sub 5 male, they probably make fun of you or you are a second class friend in the best of the cases, but you will never experience what a true friendship feels like.
Now I know I was never one of them.
