I remember one day I was rotting on PUA YouTube videos in my room, and this was about a year or a half before I found the blackpill, when I all of the sudden had a deep wave of skepticism wash over my body. It was intense too. It was cinema tier. But keep in mind I had spent a lot of time & effort meditating 4 years ago, and meditating helps with getting focus, getting insights and improving your intuition.
But it was so strange I got that feeling then, because I wasn’t meditating as much as I did years before.
I hated that skeptical feeling because there was nothing I could point to that justified what I was feeling. I kept thinking of ways I could see through the cracks of PUA, but nothing came up. “Is all this stuff really the truth? What if it’s somehow all wrong?” It was so uncomfortable having these thoughts randomly pop into my head. PUA legit has an answer for anything, just like religion. But at least with religion, the skeptics are everywhere, and I realized it was bs when I was young and tried to test to see of god was real by asking him to reasonably make XYZ a reality.
Looking back, it was probably due to not only facing lookism IRL (as well as seeing it through my friends back in High School’s text convos on random foids on social media) as well as a Based Zeus video saying “looks matter, but anyone can become as high smv as the male model bro”… not to mention that so many of these alphalinity gurus are physically attractive themselves.
I remember trying to mew and do cheek exercises to reduce body fat to no avail.
I mean, we all know that lookism & facial rankings are seared into the brain too, so that’s something.
But it was so strange I got that feeling then, because I wasn’t meditating as much as I did years before.
I hated that skeptical feeling because there was nothing I could point to that justified what I was feeling. I kept thinking of ways I could see through the cracks of PUA, but nothing came up. “Is all this stuff really the truth? What if it’s somehow all wrong?” It was so uncomfortable having these thoughts randomly pop into my head. PUA legit has an answer for anything, just like religion. But at least with religion, the skeptics are everywhere, and I realized it was bs when I was young and tried to test to see of god was real by asking him to reasonably make XYZ a reality.
Looking back, it was probably due to not only facing lookism IRL (as well as seeing it through my friends back in High School’s text convos on random foids on social media) as well as a Based Zeus video saying “looks matter, but anyone can become as high smv as the male model bro”… not to mention that so many of these alphalinity gurus are physically attractive themselves.
I remember trying to mew and do cheek exercises to reduce body fat to no avail.
I mean, we all know that lookism & facial rankings are seared into the brain too, so that’s something.
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