The reality is nobody truly gives a shit either way. If an inkwell sends it, it's disgusting attention seeking behavior. Why are you dumping your problems on others, especially women you don't know? It's very creepy behavior. Why not dump it on your friends? Oh wait, you have none.
But then say you are are chad. Then the foids want to get in your pants. So even then their words are cynical. The reality is if you are struggling, nobody gives a shit either way. People are selfish and never really care.
I don't understand what value I would have that makes me worth keeping here against my will. Nobody knows me, so I don't hold value to others. Is it the economic contribution to my country's GDP that I have left to do in the years I haven't lived yet? If that's my only source of value, I reject it. What pain have people bore for me to justify me bearing this pain for them?