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satirecel
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I'm so tired of making stupid ascension plans and thinking about potential ascension. They'll never work anyway and the anxiety is just too fucking strong.
It's all so hopeless at the end of the day.
My desire for love, affection and sex is and was always so fucking high, but I'll never be able to fulfill these desires (maybe the sex part by visiting hookers, but that's not a long term solution).
Most people lose their acne in their 20s, meanwhile I am losing my hair and getting even worse acne.
Especially today, the balding part makes me really fucking depressed.
I am excluded from so many things, friendship, relationships, sex, social activities, just because I'm ugly and kinda shy.
That's not fair. No one cares about me and I was always the one who initiated conversations during school time and stuff.
No one, besides forum members here, can relate to these problems.
It's not normal for a 20 year old guy to rot in complete social isolation and wish to die in his sleep everyday.
But there is still some kind of "hope" left, even though I know that nothing will ever improve.
The downwards spiral is endless and I completely know that it's false-hope. Nothing can save me.
Maybe it's just instinct?
I just want to overcome this last hope and finally rot in peace until I have the balls to commit suicide.
It's all so hopeless at the end of the day.
My desire for love, affection and sex is and was always so fucking high, but I'll never be able to fulfill these desires (maybe the sex part by visiting hookers, but that's not a long term solution).
Most people lose their acne in their 20s, meanwhile I am losing my hair and getting even worse acne.
Especially today, the balding part makes me really fucking depressed.
I am excluded from so many things, friendship, relationships, sex, social activities, just because I'm ugly and kinda shy.
That's not fair. No one cares about me and I was always the one who initiated conversations during school time and stuff.
No one, besides forum members here, can relate to these problems.
It's not normal for a 20 year old guy to rot in complete social isolation and wish to die in his sleep everyday.
But there is still some kind of "hope" left, even though I know that nothing will ever improve.
The downwards spiral is endless and I completely know that it's false-hope. Nothing can save me.
Maybe it's just instinct?
I just want to overcome this last hope and finally rot in peace until I have the balls to commit suicide.