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I've never been able to fit with normies ever since I was born. Since 1st grade, kids would always avoid me, even before making a first impression. I am not hideous or disfigured, but I don't know what's up with that.
During elementary and middle school we would sit in pairs in the same chair. Nobody wanted me to sit next to them, and everyone would shove me away and tell me to go sit somewhere else, but even when I go somewhere else, I would get harassed by the other person and finally I'd ask the teacher (who didn't give a fuck) to do something because no one wants me to sit next to them and then the teacher would force someone to accept me sitting next to them (they'd spend the entire semester harassing me and bullying me).
Next to high school Chads would pick on me and even threw a metallic object to my head and had it bruised and I had to get it stitched by a nurse. My faggot father didn't do anything and I was mocked for being assaulted and not responding.
Now I am in uni and nobody wants to be my friend.
My parents would always tell me that I would become a confident successful man once I become an adult but that never manifested.
I have physical health issues, especially with my bones and joints. I always wanted to be a boxer but I can't exercise due to my frail body.
I walk by a see-through boxing gym every day and see Chads sparring and moving swiftly with their fit, chiseled bodies and smiling whereas I lament the fact I'll never be able to be like them.
Finally, I am constantly depressed and have to survive on Prozac to be able to function.
My life is boring, I have no hobbies, no friends, no talent.
I tried out several personal development courses, nothing helped. I tried several YouTube channels, nothing worked. I've read a dozen books on various self-development and ascension-related topics and yet, nothing worked.
Also lately my heart has been beating erratically and my health is declining.
What to do? I face setbacks in every domain of my life.
Should I bother looksmaxxing? Idk what to do.
Unironically I am a nice person and never wished anyone harm, so it's certainly not my personality.
Even basic shit like sleeping is a troublesome thing for me. I have extreme insomnia and I never feel rested after I sleep. I tried every fucking method for falling asleep and it would unironically only exacerbate my insomnia.
I can cope with being ignored and being lonely but I can't cope with my bad health.
What to do??????????????
During elementary and middle school we would sit in pairs in the same chair. Nobody wanted me to sit next to them, and everyone would shove me away and tell me to go sit somewhere else, but even when I go somewhere else, I would get harassed by the other person and finally I'd ask the teacher (who didn't give a fuck) to do something because no one wants me to sit next to them and then the teacher would force someone to accept me sitting next to them (they'd spend the entire semester harassing me and bullying me).
Next to high school Chads would pick on me and even threw a metallic object to my head and had it bruised and I had to get it stitched by a nurse. My faggot father didn't do anything and I was mocked for being assaulted and not responding.
Now I am in uni and nobody wants to be my friend.
My parents would always tell me that I would become a confident successful man once I become an adult but that never manifested.
I have physical health issues, especially with my bones and joints. I always wanted to be a boxer but I can't exercise due to my frail body.
I walk by a see-through boxing gym every day and see Chads sparring and moving swiftly with their fit, chiseled bodies and smiling whereas I lament the fact I'll never be able to be like them.
Finally, I am constantly depressed and have to survive on Prozac to be able to function.
My life is boring, I have no hobbies, no friends, no talent.
I tried out several personal development courses, nothing helped. I tried several YouTube channels, nothing worked. I've read a dozen books on various self-development and ascension-related topics and yet, nothing worked.
Also lately my heart has been beating erratically and my health is declining.
What to do? I face setbacks in every domain of my life.
Should I bother looksmaxxing? Idk what to do.
Unironically I am a nice person and never wished anyone harm, so it's certainly not my personality.
Even basic shit like sleeping is a troublesome thing for me. I have extreme insomnia and I never feel rested after I sleep. I tried every fucking method for falling asleep and it would unironically only exacerbate my insomnia.
I can cope with being ignored and being lonely but I can't cope with my bad health.
What to do??????????????
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