Ever since I took the antinatalism pill, my whole world view has changed. I consider a "virtuous" pregnant woman worse than a serial killer, because while the former brings a child into a world of suffering and gambles with life, the latter is bringing the sweet release of death upon others.
My hierarchy of what it means to be moral is the following, from the most moral to the least moral:
0. World destruction -> destroying all life. No more children getting raped, no more incels, no more suffering, no more boredom, no more illness etc. I consider this currently unachievable, although I assume some high iq genius can engineer something, like a biological virus that can be spread. Nonetheless, this would be the highest moral aim.
1. Suicide -> opting out of this shit completely.
2. Asceticism -> opting out of this shit, but not completely, because of survival instinct. Probably veganism would fit in here as well. Basically reducing the harm we inflict on others by being absent, also living truthfully. If all social interactions are about sex and power, hermitmaxxing is a honest way to live.
3. Antinatalism -> Do whatever, just don't breed.
4. Normal natalism -> Basically normies. Evil by definition, but stupid and sort of humble.
5. Militant natalism/optimism/religion -> all the moralfags who preach "virtue" and pro life shit. The scum of the earth. Still stupid, but dangerous.
6. Sadism -> people who would inflict suffering just for suffering's sake.
I think that only about 0.1% people can fall into [1-3] categories, usually those with a great capacity for awareness. Over 99% of people just fall into [4-5], with a tiny minority of sadists [6].
Giving that I do not have the courage to off myself, nor the mental/physical strength to go live in the woods, nor the stupidity to be a norman, I am basically stuck in [3].
Although I consider myself superior to the lower categories, I am consumed by 2 problems:
1. I feel inferior to the first categories. Which is sort of exaggerated. Schopenhauer himself was in [3], although he stated that not existing is better than existing and also praised asceticism.
2. I can be guilt tripped easily by moral fags, because I have the programming of a 'good' person. Suppose I could steal from a church. According to my above reasoning, this is neutral or even right, as I am harming an entity that preaches pro-life morality and illusions. So one can say I am indirectly doing a favor for humanity (far fetched, but still). But I still feel like people could successfully shame me into feeling like I have done a bad thing.
I am want to cure this. I want to become successfully amoral and unshamable. I already won the real morality game - I have acknowledged the harm of coming into existence and I wouldn't have children even if I could. I feel 'saved'. Now I want to be able to become amoral when it comes to the superficial game of life.
How do I do it?
And most importantly, is it actually possible for a 'nice' person like me to actually become amoral? Is the predisposition to being guilt tripped gene deep? Or is it a learned trait that I can shake off?
My hierarchy of what it means to be moral is the following, from the most moral to the least moral:
0. World destruction -> destroying all life. No more children getting raped, no more incels, no more suffering, no more boredom, no more illness etc. I consider this currently unachievable, although I assume some high iq genius can engineer something, like a biological virus that can be spread. Nonetheless, this would be the highest moral aim.
1. Suicide -> opting out of this shit completely.
2. Asceticism -> opting out of this shit, but not completely, because of survival instinct. Probably veganism would fit in here as well. Basically reducing the harm we inflict on others by being absent, also living truthfully. If all social interactions are about sex and power, hermitmaxxing is a honest way to live.
3. Antinatalism -> Do whatever, just don't breed.
4. Normal natalism -> Basically normies. Evil by definition, but stupid and sort of humble.
5. Militant natalism/optimism/religion -> all the moralfags who preach "virtue" and pro life shit. The scum of the earth. Still stupid, but dangerous.
6. Sadism -> people who would inflict suffering just for suffering's sake.
I think that only about 0.1% people can fall into [1-3] categories, usually those with a great capacity for awareness. Over 99% of people just fall into [4-5], with a tiny minority of sadists [6].
Giving that I do not have the courage to off myself, nor the mental/physical strength to go live in the woods, nor the stupidity to be a norman, I am basically stuck in [3].
Although I consider myself superior to the lower categories, I am consumed by 2 problems:
1. I feel inferior to the first categories. Which is sort of exaggerated. Schopenhauer himself was in [3], although he stated that not existing is better than existing and also praised asceticism.
2. I can be guilt tripped easily by moral fags, because I have the programming of a 'good' person. Suppose I could steal from a church. According to my above reasoning, this is neutral or even right, as I am harming an entity that preaches pro-life morality and illusions. So one can say I am indirectly doing a favor for humanity (far fetched, but still). But I still feel like people could successfully shame me into feeling like I have done a bad thing.
I am want to cure this. I want to become successfully amoral and unshamable. I already won the real morality game - I have acknowledged the harm of coming into existence and I wouldn't have children even if I could. I feel 'saved'. Now I want to be able to become amoral when it comes to the superficial game of life.
How do I do it?
And most importantly, is it actually possible for a 'nice' person like me to actually become amoral? Is the predisposition to being guilt tripped gene deep? Or is it a learned trait that I can shake off?
