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twascilk99
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>I won't jerk off, i'm so detached it feels like beating someone else's meat: not good
>going to uni: mog so hard i feel like homeless at a wedding party
>going outside: see above + pity stares from random people
>work? no point: am richcel, rather go to uni to make it look like i'm doing something and take brutal mogs 5 days a weeek than slave away
The one thing though. The absolute debilitating emptiness is too much to handle. I can't do anything at this point, my fingers feel heavy as i write this, i feel tired all the time, most of my free time is spent staring outside the window or just sitting feeling like i'm about to die or something. when i look at myself in the mirror i don't feel like it's me, i catch myself involuntarily laughing at my own reflection, detachment is a scary thing sometimes. i wake up every day thinking like maybe all this shit is in my head and i'll have a great day this time, sooner or later my face will find the mirror and it's almost scary again how i involuntarily am disgusted and cringe at my own reflection and my mind is fighting the idea that it's in fact me. It's over, it's truly over. Always has been.
>going to uni: mog so hard i feel like homeless at a wedding party
>going outside: see above + pity stares from random people
>work? no point: am richcel, rather go to uni to make it look like i'm doing something and take brutal mogs 5 days a weeek than slave away
The one thing though. The absolute debilitating emptiness is too much to handle. I can't do anything at this point, my fingers feel heavy as i write this, i feel tired all the time, most of my free time is spent staring outside the window or just sitting feeling like i'm about to die or something. when i look at myself in the mirror i don't feel like it's me, i catch myself involuntarily laughing at my own reflection, detachment is a scary thing sometimes. i wake up every day thinking like maybe all this shit is in my head and i'll have a great day this time, sooner or later my face will find the mirror and it's almost scary again how i involuntarily am disgusted and cringe at my own reflection and my mind is fighting the idea that it's in fact me. It's over, it's truly over. Always has been.