How the fuck can I cut down from alcohol

[the_only_ugly_YWG]

So I have extremely severe existential OCD where I spend 24/7 just stuck in excrutiating terror at the fact I'm conscious and I'm trapped in my body, I'm like too aware of the fact im trapped inside a singular body and I can't even prove that I'm not the only fucking conscious being in existence, this was a problem before I started drinking heavy

Since early December Ive gotten into this fucked up routine of getting drunk as fuck at 4/5pm, trying to appear sober in front of parents whilst we eat dinner, going back upstairs around midnight and getting drunk again, then I spend the entire next day just absolutely fucking freaking the fuck out with borderline psychosis tier panic attacks that don't end, yet I still just can't fucking stop drinking, I had the opportunity tonight to not drink again after managing to not get too drunk at 4pm, but I ultimately caved in and got drunk again and now I'm fucking dreading today because I know exactly what's gunna happen, I'm gunna spend the whole day with my heart pounding through my chest feeling like I'm literally seconds away from getting myself put into a psych ward

Any alcoholic brocels who've managed to successfully cut down or even stop? How the fuck do I do this? I can't remember the last time I've gotten sleep without some kind of sedative being involved

 

[Roastie Crusher]

get liver disease

 

[Squatting Slavcel]

When you want to drink, do 10 pushups instead. Or just watch porn, that's the lazier option.

 

[Lonelyus]

So I have extremely severe existential OCD where I spend 24/7 just stuck in excrutiating terror at the fact I'm conscious and I'm trapped in my body, I'm like too aware of the fact im trapped inside a singular body and I can't even prove that I'm not the only fucking conscious being in existence, this was a problem before I started drinking heavy

Sounds like me, Im stuck worrying about my fucked up nose birth defect while aging

 

[BornToLose]

You've basically got to stack up some proper sober time, one day at a time. You'll get used to it over time and find new copes. And sleep will improve as you go. Trying to cut down never worked for me. I quit after many attempts.

 

[j10009504]

you are in the cycle of shit. The depressing thing is that even if you manage to stop, staying stopped is even more difficult / impossible. Once you have the addiction, it's over.

 

[Friezacel]

Replace alc with weed