So back in 2018, I was around 15 years old and I had this friend in high-school who was literally like me, we did the same stuff, he was slightly taller than me, I was 160cm and he was 170cm. And we were both going through puberty and developing, at that time I used to be a bluepilled people pleaser who tried to be given the opportunity to exist around people and he had a small circle of friends but I was there, kind of as an exception, basically we were at the same point in life with slight differences.
We both started hitting the gym and stuff but I don't know if I was doing it wrong or what but I saw no result, maybe I wasn't sticking to the plan as much as I could, so this guy around 3 months in already had insane muscles and was starting to get sipped by foids since he was developing better, I was kind of envious but it didn't bother me too much.
Then I started electric guitar to have an interesting hobby and I went to lessons and practiced every day. Out of nowhere this guy decided to also pick guitar and started getting much better than me even being self taught, again, getting all the attention. I was getting mad as fuck at this point but tried to keep my cool.
Later he decided to present me his friend group and we started hanging out and thought they found me interesting, until at the birthday of one of the group members I had a heavy crash out because I complained how I couldn't progress and my friend was progressing like crazy and they just laughed at me and told me I didn't practice enough and that maybe I wasn't made for guitar. So I just pushed a guy, hit a pole with my hand and sat in a bench nearby to cry for 3 hours until the party ended. Since then they never batted an eye on me ever again.
2019 I reunited with my friend and he told me how he already fucked a foid he met on valorant and how he's been hired to go to local bars to give concerts. At that point I decided to cut off contact with him.
Now I just check his stories on Instagram whenever I'm feeling depressed to feel even more depressed and watch him be successful in life as I'm rotting away.
If you took the time to read all this shit thank you
We both started hitting the gym and stuff but I don't know if I was doing it wrong or what but I saw no result, maybe I wasn't sticking to the plan as much as I could, so this guy around 3 months in already had insane muscles and was starting to get sipped by foids since he was developing better, I was kind of envious but it didn't bother me too much.
Then I started electric guitar to have an interesting hobby and I went to lessons and practiced every day. Out of nowhere this guy decided to also pick guitar and started getting much better than me even being self taught, again, getting all the attention. I was getting mad as fuck at this point but tried to keep my cool.
Later he decided to present me his friend group and we started hanging out and thought they found me interesting, until at the birthday of one of the group members I had a heavy crash out because I complained how I couldn't progress and my friend was progressing like crazy and they just laughed at me and told me I didn't practice enough and that maybe I wasn't made for guitar. So I just pushed a guy, hit a pole with my hand and sat in a bench nearby to cry for 3 hours until the party ended. Since then they never batted an eye on me ever again.
2019 I reunited with my friend and he told me how he already fucked a foid he met on valorant and how he's been hired to go to local bars to give concerts. At that point I decided to cut off contact with him.
Now I just check his stories on Instagram whenever I'm feeling depressed to feel even more depressed and watch him be successful in life as I'm rotting away.
If you took the time to read all this shit thank you
