(There's a TL;DR at the bottom if this is too long for you)
These last few days, I've been thinking about something that happened like 4 years ago and how I might have been able to score a gf (or at least a friend) were it not for being cock blocked by my own autism.
At an old job, there was this 2/10 woman in her 50s who worked in another office in the same building. I was early to mid 20s at this job (before I went NEET, ofc). Whenever we'd meet in the communal areas, she would always say hello. This went on for over a year. Without sounding cringe af when I say this, she said it in a very nice polite kinda enthusiastic way unlike the usual quiet monotone way most people say it.
Once we met during our commute and she greeted me very enthusiastically, we then had a brief chat where she explained she was actually going to a new job.
I should've asked for her phone number but my autism wouldn't allow it. Even if she didn't want to be my gf, would've still been nice to have a friend. It's too late now, I don't know her surname or where her new job is.
Cringe af, I know, but that's probably the closest I've been to having a gf.
Maybe she was a lonely spinster who got desperate enough to consider an incel. Maybe she knew that, being ugly and poor, I was also desperate and would be likely to ask her out if she gave even the slightest hint.
It's also possible she was just being polite and would be horrified to be asked out by an ugly autistic poor 20-something. Similarly, it's possible she only wanted to be friends and nothing more.
I'll never know.
TL;DR - A 2/10 woman in her 50s was polite to me at work for over a year, which is so rare it caused me to think she was flirting. I was too autistic to say anything on our last encounter. It's possible she wanted to be my gf but I never asked so I'll never know.
These last few days, I've been thinking about something that happened like 4 years ago and how I might have been able to score a gf (or at least a friend) were it not for being cock blocked by my own autism.
At an old job, there was this 2/10 woman in her 50s who worked in another office in the same building. I was early to mid 20s at this job (before I went NEET, ofc). Whenever we'd meet in the communal areas, she would always say hello. This went on for over a year. Without sounding cringe af when I say this, she said it in a very nice polite kinda enthusiastic way unlike the usual quiet monotone way most people say it.
Once we met during our commute and she greeted me very enthusiastically, we then had a brief chat where she explained she was actually going to a new job.
I should've asked for her phone number but my autism wouldn't allow it. Even if she didn't want to be my gf, would've still been nice to have a friend. It's too late now, I don't know her surname or where her new job is.
Cringe af, I know, but that's probably the closest I've been to having a gf.
Maybe she was a lonely spinster who got desperate enough to consider an incel. Maybe she knew that, being ugly and poor, I was also desperate and would be likely to ask her out if she gave even the slightest hint.
It's also possible she was just being polite and would be horrified to be asked out by an ugly autistic poor 20-something. Similarly, it's possible she only wanted to be friends and nothing more.
I'll never know.
TL;DR - A 2/10 woman in her 50s was polite to me at work for over a year, which is so rare it caused me to think she was flirting. I was too autistic to say anything on our last encounter. It's possible she wanted to be my gf but I never asked so I'll never know.
