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CuriousObserver
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- Jul 25, 2018
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Hear me out before you tear into me.
I'm not going to write my life story here but I the summary is not much different from anyone else's story here. I'm a virgin and celibate and I've been that way for a long time.
Tbh I've been more interested in sharing a meanigful bond with a female rather than sex, porn pretty much satisfies that urge.
But i started looking at myself and I realized how much sex has dominated my life (or the lack of it). I gave up porn (let's just say I'm giving up porn) and i guess i can say I'm becoming more spiritual. I'm not looking for validation so much, not as a prerequisite to living my life anyway.
I guess i asked myself what I am. I've always loved a challenge so I took a good look (over several months) and I asked myself what I could do. What I was worth. I didn't really have much success with being spiritual and all that but i did find a huge flaw in my mentality.
Lots of people changed the world and their life was all about something else they obsessed over. Their work, their community etc. So why punish myself when i can look inward and accept that the stupid world isn't fair and hey! Who knows. Success does have it's perks.
Yeah I'm probably naive but tbh it's more peaceful than being angry all the time.
Okay, you can devour me now
I'm not going to write my life story here but I the summary is not much different from anyone else's story here. I'm a virgin and celibate and I've been that way for a long time.
Tbh I've been more interested in sharing a meanigful bond with a female rather than sex, porn pretty much satisfies that urge.
But i started looking at myself and I realized how much sex has dominated my life (or the lack of it). I gave up porn (let's just say I'm giving up porn) and i guess i can say I'm becoming more spiritual. I'm not looking for validation so much, not as a prerequisite to living my life anyway.
I guess i asked myself what I am. I've always loved a challenge so I took a good look (over several months) and I asked myself what I could do. What I was worth. I didn't really have much success with being spiritual and all that but i did find a huge flaw in my mentality.
Lots of people changed the world and their life was all about something else they obsessed over. Their work, their community etc. So why punish myself when i can look inward and accept that the stupid world isn't fair and hey! Who knows. Success does have it's perks.
Yeah I'm probably naive but tbh it's more peaceful than being angry all the time.
Okay, you can devour me now