Similar situation, two whores from my high school photographed me and I don't know what they did with those photos. People on Ome TV skip me, call me names or laugh how ugly I am. One girl from my class joked on how ugly I was. My problem is that I look like combination of male, female and some old person, so I look very retared and troonish. Some higher force decided to punish me as much as possible. 170cm height is there to make things even more unbearable. I worked a summer job with shitty pay, but it was a background bartender which doesn't serve and only makes drinks. I don't know what are my employment prospects until I finish university (it's an industial job I'm looking for, can't doxx myself by revealing my degree).
Problem is that even some older middle aged women are afraid of me. There were female professors who were scared to be alone with me in a room. There is so much uncertainty. I don't know how many years I'm going to survive when I'm this ugly. Gen Z is insanely brutal and gen alpha will be straight up savage.