I feel your pain, my father was a super White blue eyed Chad who with age became a fat Chadlite~High Tier Normie. I always saw all the attention he got from toilets at parties and they would approach him, laugh at his jokes, and would just spontaneously seek to be around him and touch him whenever he was around. I'm an ugly African with no social skills.
Whenever I try Interacting with people it fails and I am trying to NTmax but it's absolutely difficult.
As a kid I got medicine to help me with my monophobia (fear of being alone) and all it did was make me fat and since I was 12 I have literally not had a moment in my life when I felt "full", despite being physically full. The only "good luck" I had from that medicine is that it grew me to 6'2 despite always being a midget among my peers. But the obesity cancels out any advantages I could have had from that.
Despite scoring high on school qualification tests I got placed in the lowest schools because of my behaviour and social issues.
Now I just rot away as a NEET.
I never
not hated being me.