I wanted to start my journey in this forum by providing a small introduction of what radicalized me into an incel.
Btw this is the closest encounter with a foid that I ever had in my entire life. I genuinely despise how much of a beta cuck I behaved that one time...
WARNING: it didnt surmount to anything at all. No romance, no sex, ZERO
So basically I go regularly to this debate club thing we have in our uni, and sometimes I participate and sometimes I dont. So this one day, the topic was something related to mental health or therapy, and there was this girl she said she suffered from depression for x years, it was kind of relevant in the discussion, and after the event ends, the fucking retard that I was, I went up to her and told her something along the lines of "oh hey I heard what you were saying earlier, and I can tell you that I can totally relate too honestly" (cuz at that time I was actually diagnosed with extreme depression and was lonely and desperate), and she genuinely didnt seem repulsed by my approach, and she looked like she had somewhat of a positive reaction, said some things initially like yeah true or something along those lines, and then she says "do you want my instagram?" right after she said that, I was in instant disbelief as this never did happen in my entire life, and I was like yeah sure, and we went out of that debate club room, there was some coffee shop right next to it like 50 meters away, we were walking side by side while we were just yapping naturally about random topics, and eventually we went to that campus coffee. I sat, she ordered some drink, then sat in front of me, we kept talking about our interests and so on, she even asked some questions like where do I live, and also made some implicit invitations like saying Im on the library in x spot if you want to discuss y topic further, not that it meant anything but at that time it felt like something was starting to happen, and I could say that at that time I genuinely felt attracted to her not only physically but just her as a person aswell.
We kept chatting for like I think max like 40 minutes then out of nowhere she claims she gets a call, I thought it was weird since I didnt hear any vibrating or ringing from her phone at all, so she goes outside the campus coffee, then like 5 minutes later comes back and tells me that she had some emergency with her roomate or whathever so she had to leave, and initially I genuinely believed it, but then after a while reflecting on it, it really does seem she was just trying to end the interaction without being rude.
Look I can tell that any of you guys reading this will be suspicious that Im trying to brag or im a fakecell or whathever but wait for it I still didn't finnish.
Like a dumbass I thought there was some mutual interest so I texted her first on ig, I mean come on anyone would interpret it that way regardless... So yeah I texted her first something like "wuss good", no reply for one day. Next day I tried being smart about it and try to connect it to the discussion we had in the campus coffee and texted her something like "you mentioned something about the library when you left i didnt really hear what you said in the end", so that she would repeat that phrase she said about finding her in the library, then she replied "totally forgot whats that about". Anyways Im going to spare you the awkward texting, and her passive replies each time after days of ghosting my initial text. So at some point I got desperate and started yapping about some philosophical shit because figured she's the type of person to be interested in that stuff, so explaining what I meant by desperate I was writing some long nihilistic paragraphs kind of hinting that I was kind going trough some heavy depressive episode just to crave her attention as the cuck and beta I was. She engaged only with the intellectual part, didnt give a shit about me as a person, at some point I was even desperate enough to confess to her that I was depressed and some other details...
Anyways so to tell you the truth at this point you'd know already that this is a dead end and I should just move on. But no, I still had some hope in me regardless... But then this is the where the tragedy and betrayal happens, I was chilling with my friend on campus, which also somewhat of an incel like me (or at least I thought), I shared the instagram of this girl to him telling him explicitly that Im interested in her, he follows her, he texts her, she ends up confessing some very personal shit about herself to him, like actual sexual discussions, and apparently she told him that she was a lesbian, how did I know this? this guy goes up to me the next day and with a smile on his face start telling us, the friend group, about all this shit, he even told us that apparently she was having some lesbian sex and some other random guy was watching them in a cuck chair, this last info btw wasn't shared by her but it was some rumor. Next day he asks her about this rumor, he told me that she denies it and it never happened... I mean just the fact that I had that physical encounter with her in the debate club and sat with her in the campus coffee, and this guy just goes and slides in her dms and she ends up opening up about her sexuality really tells you how she never even thought of me and I was just one of her orbiters, also another guy in the friend group claims she spoke with him too and did give him some interest signs too and it turns out that this girl is famous for talking to all guys on campus... I would guess that at this point she turned all sub5 guys on campus as her orbiters.
And also even more brutal, so we have these events that happen every weekend nights where anyone can just come in and play board games or versus games on some ps5s or switch, and there also was some just dance thing in the middle of the room. I was there one day... This foid literally dances with every guy on sight, and I've probably spotted her speaking to like 3 guys at least in the same night and she then leaves the event with another guy just (both of them), and me literally just witnessing that shit just completely shattered all my delusions...
Conclusion: I moved on, (although it was hard and it took a massive toll on my mental health), and I was just one of her back up orbiters, proof of that, she unfollows me like 2 months later for no apparent reason and we never spoke again since that campus coffee encounter.
Moral of the story: Never trust signs a foid gives you initially, just wait, and if she was really obsessed with you she'll text you day and night and you'll prolly sleep with her the next day.
Btw this is the closest encounter with a foid that I ever had in my entire life. I genuinely despise how much of a beta cuck I behaved that one time...
WARNING: it didnt surmount to anything at all. No romance, no sex, ZERO
So basically I go regularly to this debate club thing we have in our uni, and sometimes I participate and sometimes I dont. So this one day, the topic was something related to mental health or therapy, and there was this girl she said she suffered from depression for x years, it was kind of relevant in the discussion, and after the event ends, the fucking retard that I was, I went up to her and told her something along the lines of "oh hey I heard what you were saying earlier, and I can tell you that I can totally relate too honestly" (cuz at that time I was actually diagnosed with extreme depression and was lonely and desperate), and she genuinely didnt seem repulsed by my approach, and she looked like she had somewhat of a positive reaction, said some things initially like yeah true or something along those lines, and then she says "do you want my instagram?" right after she said that, I was in instant disbelief as this never did happen in my entire life, and I was like yeah sure, and we went out of that debate club room, there was some coffee shop right next to it like 50 meters away, we were walking side by side while we were just yapping naturally about random topics, and eventually we went to that campus coffee. I sat, she ordered some drink, then sat in front of me, we kept talking about our interests and so on, she even asked some questions like where do I live, and also made some implicit invitations like saying Im on the library in x spot if you want to discuss y topic further, not that it meant anything but at that time it felt like something was starting to happen, and I could say that at that time I genuinely felt attracted to her not only physically but just her as a person aswell.
We kept chatting for like I think max like 40 minutes then out of nowhere she claims she gets a call, I thought it was weird since I didnt hear any vibrating or ringing from her phone at all, so she goes outside the campus coffee, then like 5 minutes later comes back and tells me that she had some emergency with her roomate or whathever so she had to leave, and initially I genuinely believed it, but then after a while reflecting on it, it really does seem she was just trying to end the interaction without being rude.
Look I can tell that any of you guys reading this will be suspicious that Im trying to brag or im a fakecell or whathever but wait for it I still didn't finnish.
Like a dumbass I thought there was some mutual interest so I texted her first on ig, I mean come on anyone would interpret it that way regardless... So yeah I texted her first something like "wuss good", no reply for one day. Next day I tried being smart about it and try to connect it to the discussion we had in the campus coffee and texted her something like "you mentioned something about the library when you left i didnt really hear what you said in the end", so that she would repeat that phrase she said about finding her in the library, then she replied "totally forgot whats that about". Anyways Im going to spare you the awkward texting, and her passive replies each time after days of ghosting my initial text. So at some point I got desperate and started yapping about some philosophical shit because figured she's the type of person to be interested in that stuff, so explaining what I meant by desperate I was writing some long nihilistic paragraphs kind of hinting that I was kind going trough some heavy depressive episode just to crave her attention as the cuck and beta I was. She engaged only with the intellectual part, didnt give a shit about me as a person, at some point I was even desperate enough to confess to her that I was depressed and some other details...
Anyways so to tell you the truth at this point you'd know already that this is a dead end and I should just move on. But no, I still had some hope in me regardless... But then this is the where the tragedy and betrayal happens, I was chilling with my friend on campus, which also somewhat of an incel like me (or at least I thought), I shared the instagram of this girl to him telling him explicitly that Im interested in her, he follows her, he texts her, she ends up confessing some very personal shit about herself to him, like actual sexual discussions, and apparently she told him that she was a lesbian, how did I know this? this guy goes up to me the next day and with a smile on his face start telling us, the friend group, about all this shit, he even told us that apparently she was having some lesbian sex and some other random guy was watching them in a cuck chair, this last info btw wasn't shared by her but it was some rumor. Next day he asks her about this rumor, he told me that she denies it and it never happened... I mean just the fact that I had that physical encounter with her in the debate club and sat with her in the campus coffee, and this guy just goes and slides in her dms and she ends up opening up about her sexuality really tells you how she never even thought of me and I was just one of her orbiters, also another guy in the friend group claims she spoke with him too and did give him some interest signs too and it turns out that this girl is famous for talking to all guys on campus... I would guess that at this point she turned all sub5 guys on campus as her orbiters.
And also even more brutal, so we have these events that happen every weekend nights where anyone can just come in and play board games or versus games on some ps5s or switch, and there also was some just dance thing in the middle of the room. I was there one day... This foid literally dances with every guy on sight, and I've probably spotted her speaking to like 3 guys at least in the same night and she then leaves the event with another guy just (both of them), and me literally just witnessing that shit just completely shattered all my delusions...
Conclusion: I moved on, (although it was hard and it took a massive toll on my mental health), and I was just one of her back up orbiters, proof of that, she unfollows me like 2 months later for no apparent reason and we never spoke again since that campus coffee encounter.
Moral of the story: Never trust signs a foid gives you initially, just wait, and if she was really obsessed with you she'll text you day and night and you'll prolly sleep with her the next day.
