What keeps you going after regularly overdosing on blackpills?
Serious How do you witness so much evil in every imaginable form and then continue to go on living? How do you do it?
Coping however possible, to try and distract myself from my miserable life, and this soyed up clown world.
This world isn't just soy and clownish. Its straight up cursed and evil.
Sleeping with my harem of blonde blue-eyed stacies 
Tru, it can feel crippling
Every night I go to sleep wishing for some supernatural power like a kid, but not for the good of the world (or at least half the population).
Every night I go to sleep wishing for some supernatural power like a kid, but not for the good of the world (or at least half the population).
Try just distract myself from it all, i hate humans so nothing surprises me anymore.
What keeps you going??
I see you saying you want to kill yourself all the time but you never do
Nothing keeps me going. My body keeps on functioning but my mind is dead. My brain doesn't work anymore and I can't try anymore.
If something happens, it happens. There is nothing else to it. I try not to react to most things because I know i cant change anything.
Why dont you rope then??
Too scared.
Theres my answer to your question and pretty much the same for everyone else here whether they admit to it or not
I just wish I wasn't scared.
Idk what to tell you tbh
Its hard to bypass your programming
You either have it in you to off yourself or you dont
The ones who do are the lucky ones since they dont have to rot for as long
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Need coping suggestions.
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Good question. It has become harder and harder to cope, since now it has become crystal clear that it’s truly over at my age.
I have my poison. I have come as far as planning out my suicide, but I just can't do it. Maybe I will be able to in the future when my suffering gets worse.
You should try buddhism as a cope
Have you tried it?
Not yet since I'm too hedonistic and lazy but i plan to when I become older to avoid falling into total depression.
Yeah giving up needs is not easy. I tried but I became a zombie.
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Fear of death is the only reason most sub7 men didnt rope yet
Yeah.
I try to deny my knowledge
Doesn't that make you go insane?
Maybe
But probably not
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There is no avoiding that. I’m in that total depression at mid 30s now. Can only get much worse. I hope I can muster the courage to eventually rope.
Lots of alcohol and weed
Then when it all comes to a boiling point I take it out on my guitar and think about naughty things.
Then when it all comes to a boiling point I take it out on my guitar and think about naughty things.
I am pretty much on the same boat. I can't go on anymore.
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How old are you? Are there many wizardcels here?
Yes sometimes
mid 30s. yeah wizardcel.
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Damn, so we are same age. Truly over.
We're in the final stages of our lives really tbh ngl.
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Still, can’t get over the sadness and grief. But what should I have expected when I spent all my life hiding from the world in my room, having panic attacks just from taking the bus or entering the school. It never began.
But what felt like a relief back then (hiding from the world), feels like hell now.
I also wish I would not have dissapointed my mother like this.
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Yeah its the sadness that comes with mourning over what our lives could've been like had we inherited slightly better genetics. Even now I have so many passions, desires, and ambitions, but I'm forced to relinquish all of it because of my lack of ability.
Yes exactly because the mind craves growth. it needs growth and achievement.
Long ago I used to feel bad about disappointing my dad, but not anymore after realizing how their genetics set me up to fail. If anything, it is I who is justified in feeling disappointed and disheartened by the cursed inheritance which they passed onto me. They should've NEVER reproduced.
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Beautifully put. I think all the time about how I should have done this or that differently, but was any other option ever a possibility? When I used to hide from the outside world? Doubtful.
I see where you are coming from, but she is a kind, hard working person who deserved better. And the only person to have truly loved me. She still have hope that I will turn my life around (I know I know).
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There is no alternative. Dying is a hard end stop. Im not religious for me there is no heaven. I would rather suffer and be alive then dont be here.
From the point of view of determinism, no other outcome besides failure was possible, but we all have some ideal in mind of where we could've gotten had certain conditions of our birth were different.
I understand, but if our parents didn't want disappointment (obviously no one does), they should've put more thought into whom they were marrying, but alas that was a different time when people were simpler and took everything for granted, but that is what has led us to this debacle we're facing today.
My dad also believes this, but I know better.
Coffee ease my mind
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