I don´t.
I think about suicide literally every minute of the day. While I talk to people about the weather IRL in my mind I picture myself driving off a cliff or hanging myself. My body is on complete autopilot and I just bury my feelings. I´ve been living every single day like that for over 10 years now. All because women have denied me basic human needs like love and sex for all my life. I could recover from my fucked up childhood, but I don´t think I could ever recover from being incel. It´s just so painful knowing women have stolen my youth from me and ruined my life. I will never get my youth back.