imbored21
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No matter how bad things get I can never imagine myself roping. I want to want it so bad though. I don't know how I'm supposed to convince myself to do it.
I believe I know what you mean its a strange mix of determination and euphoria isn't it?Sometimes when I am on very bad streaks of luck and everything is going the opposite way I get into a "crazy" state in which I could possibly rope or go ER.
wdym?It's not so much the courage, as it is the lack of resources to cope with trauma. At a certain point the amount of trauma exceeds the available resources and your brain nopes out.
Don't even know how to describe.It's like when you can't pass a level or beat a boss in video game for a long time and you are filled with rage and lose inhibition,feels like you lost your mindI believe I know what you mean its a strange mix of determination and euphoria isn't it?
Probably easier to do when you’re drunk or high
going to fail both of those purposesYou have two biological purposes in life, dictated by chemicals in your brain. Don't die, and reproduce. To overcome the first one takes either a tremendous will that 99.99% of the population doesn't have, or an accumulation of so much trauma that the human brain can't cope with it anymore. Every person has their own limit and some can control it even after that but they die inside.
Good ideas"wanting to die" is the first step but it only affects the rational part of your brain,the real issue
is to override your body self preservation mechanism.
in order to do it starving, abusing drugs,sleep deprivation and social isolation are the right things to do.
if u weaken your body, your bond with life will be easier to break.
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