To start of with these are the reasons i am here. on this site.
36YO Virgin. Have some fucked up chromosome mutation so I'm incredibly skinny, i think it's the same chromosome as Autism. I look like i have anorexia. Small skinny head and brain.
Super ugly. Bow Legged. Malformed toes. Small dick. Hip and knee tendons are fucked so in huge pain all the time. Avoidant Personality Disorder. Anxiety, Depression, Low self esteem. Think about suicide every day. Have a shitty low IQ, Low Pay job and i can barely do that properly.
Apathy. Dumb. Maybe Autism.
I have a long skinny narrow face, Overbite, TMJ, Malocclusion and am also a mouth breather. Adenoid face. Missing front tooth so have to wear a plate.
Crooked teeth, buck teeth.
I literally have the genetics of a 2-3 out of 10. People will say I'm not a true Incel because I'm 6"3 but no girl will get with a monster like me due to how ugly i am. They either dont even see me or just quickly look away.
Anyway I've also been told I'm not a real incel yet because i have a Oneitis. So I'm asking for advice from you guys, how do i finally get over her and be like you guys?
I stalked her on google and found a bunch of pictures of her from news stories including one wear she is wearing a wedding dress at a debutante ball which i have proceeded to turn into my Desktop Wallpaper so i can see her every day. I also stalked her Tik Tok and downloaded her videos. I even came up with the idea to offer her 10k to sleep with me after she quits usign a burner phone number (she works at the same place).
I know Foids are naturally cruel and horrible and she doesnt even acknowledge me unless a group is together and Chad is there so she's forced to acknowledge me and shes probably a bitch in real life and everything is just a fantasy but its like my brain is addicted to her. I even had a dream of her in a bikini, when i woke up i felt like i was getting tortured.
Anyway tldr how do i stop being such a pathetic low life Simp and take back control of my life. I'm planning on Roping eventually but i need to purge my brain first.
I don't wanna just quit since i don't wanna be homeless and I'd rather Rope then move back in with my parents who live out in the middle of nowhere and would just be shamed of me even more.
How did you guys finally ascend to the next level? If i chopped of my balls i probably wouldn't have these feelings right?