D
Deleted member 32255
Self-banned
-
- Joined
- Jan 11, 2021
- Posts
- 170
It's a fucking nightmare, I could literally vent about this shit for days on end, being the height of a little girl, on top of having an ugly gross ethnic face. No one respects me, no one at all. Its ruining my fucking life I can't go anywhere or act normal without being reminded that I'm a 12 year old girl when I'm supposed to be a fully matured man. I'm 5'7 and its just amazing, you know, being smaller than almost everyone including women. When I think about being back in high school I get filled with horror when I realize I was smaller than all my male teachers and most of the female ones. I'm a fucking little kiddy faggot, can't go anywhere in public without people wanting to beat me the fuck up. Can't express my thoughts to anyone, they won't hear it. If someone disagrees with what I have to say, all they have to do to win the argument is bring up I'm a mixed race curry skinny manlet abomination. There's no winning.
No matter how much I try to dismiss what other people have to say it keeps coming back. I don't even want to get out of bed in the morning and fucking stand up, just doing that enrages me. I'm not even safe around my family as the men are all fat and 6'0+ and they still treat me like a little kid in spite of me being 18. If my life is gonna be a nightmare because of this for eternity then I will fucking rope, no hesitations. Just waiting for the right time and materials to do it. But if there's a way to fucking forget about it some fellow manlet here who knows how to, please tell me. I'm sick of worrying about this shit, what do I do. I want to become stoic and asexual. Even if I found a way to escape society entirely I want to suppress my sexual thoughts, any time I think of a foid sexually makes me horrified about my height all over again, how worthless of a faggot scum I am and how I fucking dare to even have sexual urges as a laughable little genetic turd. I literally have a napoleon complex and throw things because of this shit, laugh all you want, but I really want a way out of this dreadful life, I might not resort to the rope just yet.
Fuck.
No matter how much I try to dismiss what other people have to say it keeps coming back. I don't even want to get out of bed in the morning and fucking stand up, just doing that enrages me. I'm not even safe around my family as the men are all fat and 6'0+ and they still treat me like a little kid in spite of me being 18. If my life is gonna be a nightmare because of this for eternity then I will fucking rope, no hesitations. Just waiting for the right time and materials to do it. But if there's a way to fucking forget about it some fellow manlet here who knows how to, please tell me. I'm sick of worrying about this shit, what do I do. I want to become stoic and asexual. Even if I found a way to escape society entirely I want to suppress my sexual thoughts, any time I think of a foid sexually makes me horrified about my height all over again, how worthless of a faggot scum I am and how I fucking dare to even have sexual urges as a laughable little genetic turd. I literally have a napoleon complex and throw things because of this shit, laugh all you want, but I really want a way out of this dreadful life, I might not resort to the rope just yet.
Fuck.