It's not that I would have an acute anxiety attack or something.
It's less strong, but strong enough and chronic.
Whenever I try to do an activity that moves me closer to my life goals (like reading something complicated for university or coding, so I can afford better copes one day or at least have an interesting job), I become anxious, and I'm starting to distract myself by watching memes or binge-watching series.
I even tried go Mountainbikeing and drinking water and eating healthy. Idk maybe I should work out, that helped in the past.
I'm ruining my future for this instant gratification bullshit but I can't stop because if I don't numb my anxiety it feels like a headache and a sting in my heart.
At least in the past I could study in the same university room with some of my more-or-less "friends", fuck you corona-chan.
It's less strong, but strong enough and chronic.
Whenever I try to do an activity that moves me closer to my life goals (like reading something complicated for university or coding, so I can afford better copes one day or at least have an interesting job), I become anxious, and I'm starting to distract myself by watching memes or binge-watching series.
I even tried go Mountainbikeing and drinking water and eating healthy. Idk maybe I should work out, that helped in the past.
I'm ruining my future for this instant gratification bullshit but I can't stop because if I don't numb my anxiety it feels like a headache and a sting in my heart.
At least in the past I could study in the same university room with some of my more-or-less "friends", fuck you corona-chan.
