I never thought I'd say this but hear me out
I've always harboured a particular hatred for black foids, I considered the majority I encountered as fucking subhuman.
Until I recently started working part time at subway, where this extremely cute, vulpix looking, blacka with a fat ass was employed. She'd smile all the time and had some german sounding accent she constantly tried to mask. I'd secretly take pictures of her sometimes when I was bored. ( Do I get banned if I share ?)
But that was pretty much it.
She asked for a ride home once because she was stranded and I declined with some bullshit excuse.
No free car rides, it's not like she was gonna fuck, or even acknowledge my miserable existence in the future anyway.
I'm the most socially inept retard, and because of that some foids at work blatantly avoided or ignored me in the cruelest possible way.
The hallways are quite tight and some of these whores would literally squirm past me so they don't have to brush against me.
I once overheard a convo where some of them were even trying to switch shifts because they apparently didnt want to work with me.
It was like high school all over again, brutal as fuck, I was ready to quit at that point and never leave my house again.
Black foid intervened though and said she'd do her shifts with me anytime, which was one hell of a surprise.
We've been working together since a few months now and she's only been nice to me, I mean she even said that she enjoys our conversations.
When I "accidentally" touch her she doesn't freak out, neither does she seem repulsed by me.
This is the first time in 27 years a attractive (or any)female, has reacted to me in this manner.
But she's way out of my league, I've seen her reject multiple good looking guys.
I have absolutely no chance, she's most probably nice to me out of pity, I know and have accepted that.
It's extremely fucking pathetic but I've been depressed for 4 years, and it's nice that I can at least look forward to work a little more now .
I'm coping way too hard, all advice is welcome
I've always harboured a particular hatred for black foids, I considered the majority I encountered as fucking subhuman.
Until I recently started working part time at subway, where this extremely cute, vulpix looking, blacka with a fat ass was employed. She'd smile all the time and had some german sounding accent she constantly tried to mask. I'd secretly take pictures of her sometimes when I was bored. ( Do I get banned if I share ?)
But that was pretty much it.
She asked for a ride home once because she was stranded and I declined with some bullshit excuse.
No free car rides, it's not like she was gonna fuck, or even acknowledge my miserable existence in the future anyway.
I'm the most socially inept retard, and because of that some foids at work blatantly avoided or ignored me in the cruelest possible way.
The hallways are quite tight and some of these whores would literally squirm past me so they don't have to brush against me.
I once overheard a convo where some of them were even trying to switch shifts because they apparently didnt want to work with me.
It was like high school all over again, brutal as fuck, I was ready to quit at that point and never leave my house again.
Black foid intervened though and said she'd do her shifts with me anytime, which was one hell of a surprise.
We've been working together since a few months now and she's only been nice to me, I mean she even said that she enjoys our conversations.
When I "accidentally" touch her she doesn't freak out, neither does she seem repulsed by me.
This is the first time in 27 years a attractive (or any)female, has reacted to me in this manner.
But she's way out of my league, I've seen her reject multiple good looking guys.
I have absolutely no chance, she's most probably nice to me out of pity, I know and have accepted that.
It's extremely fucking pathetic but I've been depressed for 4 years, and it's nice that I can at least look forward to work a little more now .
I'm coping way too hard, all advice is welcome
