Venting "He'll be a virgin till he's 40, look at him"

[Darkoff]

When I was 14 or 15, on my way home from football training with two of my teammates, the other two were talking about their relationships and then out of nowhere one of them said "he'll be a virgin till he's 40, look at him" and the other guy laughed and said "that's so mean" and I just laughed it off. Later when I got on the bus I was looking at my reflection in the window trying to work out what was so wrong with my appearance. I was already having so many bad experiences similar to that, in relation to lookism, around that time so it didn't really affect me too much.

It's affected me more though now as an almost 21 year old. In being so desperate for a lover I've been reflecting on all of my past experiences going back and forth on whether or not I really am that ugly and whether or not it's worth the energy going out of my way to find a relationship with the negligible energy I even have left.

Because of my desperation of being loved by somebody I keep on having these arguements to myself where I go back on forth on whether or not I'm really that ugly. And when I have these arguements in my head this experience is one of the main ones that I look back on seels the nail in the coffin to me when it comes to the question of am I capable of ever being loved.

 

[Pancakecel]

ERFuel

 

[IncelsNeverCry]

Need to reflect more on your pERsonality sweety. I remember being picked last in training for everything, even the half deaf smelly kid and the severely autistic mentally handicapped kid got picked before me, that's when I knew it was ovER.

 

[xkcdCleftcel]

brutal graypost.

 

[BornToLose]

he'll be a virgin till he's 40

But a slayer at 41.

 

[Raider919]

you'll grow stronger when you realize you don't need what soyciety tells you you do.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

ERFuel

ER would prefer to see a list of genes on this site.

 

[Darkoff]

But a slayer at 41.

xD

you'll grow stronger when you realize you don't need what soyciety tells you you do.

Elab

 

[CircumcisedClown]

I always looked weird as kid. So much so that I objectively look better now, but not by much.

When I was born, I had tons of health issues. I literally couldn’t stop vomiting, and I had a body rash until highschool.

What’s weird is I was always fit, strong, fast, and athletic. I was the fastest kid on my swim team in my age group at the time. I don’t understand why my body always fucking hated itself. I clearly have some autoimmune issues where my immune system is straight up trying to kill me.

>Dark, sunken eyes
>Constant rashes/eczema
>Projectile vomiting
>Muscle spasms
>Fatigue
Etc.

It’s so confusing being a young boy, and your body just won’t work normal. In some ways, I think Pete Davidson felt the same way, except his genes made him tall with a big cock.

In some ways, I actually look like him, facially, which is the worst part of him. If I was 4in taller with a huge cock, who knows what would have happened.

You can play of weird looks and health issues if you’re tall and hung. My cousin is a married 6’3” diabetic.

Women are the “sexual selectors”, but only like 4 things actually matter.

>Hair
>Height
>Dick size
>Race

You can’t literally have leukemia and slay if you have the 4.

 

[LifeMaxxer]

ER would prefer to see a list of genes on this site.

Is he sane again?

 

[Raider919]

xD

Elab

soyciety tell you you need its affection and approval to exist. i am here to tell you that you need no material nor any other things soyciety tell you you need. all these approvals and material goods are soyciety trying to make you into a submissive weak bitch like the rest of the feminised cucks. Instead of giving in, use the fact that you haven't received its infection to resist harder.

 

[Darkoff]

soyciety tell you you need its affection and approval to exist. i am here to tell you that you need no material nor any other things soyciety tell you you need. all these approvals and material goods are soyciety trying to make you into a submissive weak bitch like the rest of the feminised cucks. Instead of giving in, use the fact that you haven't received its infection to resist harder.

I agree that society brainwashes everyone into chasing meaningless material things which don't really exist.

I don't care for society's approval. Society is man-made and doesn't exist. Love however isn't man-made, it's my natural senses that tell me I want a lover.

 

[BoywithEarring]

brootal

 

[Bedford Stye]

If he really said that, you might have responded.

"I bet you have aids"

 

[BrootalPill]

If you went down the rabbit hole of the internet and came all the way down here, then it's probably ovER.

 

[WuhanFriedPuppies]

If you went down the rabbit hole of the internet and came all the way down here, then it's probably ovER.

Once you go black (pill) you can't go back.

 

[Julaybib]

brutal graypost.

 

[buried_alive]

Brutal asf. You could go to an escort if virginity is one concern of yours. It won't fix everything, but It's a step and will make you more comfortable around women.

 

[Restart80]

Need to reflect more on your pERsonality sweety. I remember being picked last in training for everything, even the half deaf smelly kid and the severely autistic mentally handicapped kid got picked before me, that's when I knew it was ovER.

BrooTAL

 

[Restart80]

till he's 40

Too kind

 

[blackedpiller]

I feel you brocel, honestly school with a bunch of pre Pubescent zoomer kids are at least more honest and real than the grown up soyciety we're stuck in now hearing horseshit lies and scumbags pretending to be nice people

 

[Twinkcel]

But a slayer at 41.

 

[Darkoff]

Brutal asf. You could go to an escort if virginity is one concern of yours. It won't fix everything, but It's a step and will make you more comfortable around women.

I don't give a shit about losing my virginity for the sake of it. I want love and also children.

 

[Namtriz912]

People will just brush it off as teenage humor but kids are the most truthful when it comes to your looks

 

[buried_alive]

I don't give a shit about losing my virginity for the sake of it. I want love and also children.

I used to think that and I regret it. I still think that actually, but I don't want virginity to be another obstacle. I've been rejected before because of it and I'm done with it. I plan to lose it to an escort very soon. It's not really ascension, but it's one step.

 

[Darkoff]

I used to think that and I regret it. I still think that actually, but I don't want virginity to be another obstacle. I've been rejected before because of it and I'm done with it. I plan to lose it to an escort very soon. It's not really ascension, but it's one step.

Sex is a natural urge that needs to be fulfilled so if you get escorts for the physical pleasure that's fine. You shouldn't care about the man-made label of being a virgin tho. Just do whatever you want to do it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks.

No one has ever been judged for being a virgin, it's been because of the way they look.

 

[SlayerSlayer]

When I was 14 or 15, on my way home from football training with two of my teammates, the other two were talking about their relationships and then out of nowhere one of them said "he'll be a virgin till he's 40, look at him" and the other guy laughed and said "that's so mean" and I just laughed it off. Later when I got on the bus I was looking at my reflection in the window trying to work out what was so wrong with my appearance. I was already having so many bad experiences similar to that, in relation to lookism, around that time so it didn't really affect me too much.

It's affected me more though now as an almost 21 year old. In being so desperate for a lover I've been reflecting on all of my past experiences going back and forth on whether or not I really am that ugly and whether or not it's worth the energy going out of my way to find a relationship with the negligible energy I even have left.

Because of my desperation of being loved by somebody I keep on having these arguements to myself where I go back on forth on whether or not I'm really that ugly. And when I have these arguements in my head this experience is one of the main ones that I look back on seels the nail in the coffin to me when it comes to the question of am I capable of ever being loved.

the sad thing is they are 100% correct-- its over

 

[buried_alive]

No one has ever been judged for being a virgin, it's been because of the way they look.

This is just not true. Men are very harshly judged for it. There are movies to make fun of and shame them.

 

[Darkoff]

This is just not true. Men are very harshly judged for it. There are movies to make fun of and shame them.

What they are really making fun of is the bad genetics that led them into becoming a virgin. Not the virginity itself.

 

[buried_alive]

What they are really making fun of is the bad genetics that led them into becoming a virgin. Not the virginity itself.

Not necessarily. Not every virgin has bad genetics.

 

[Count Yorga]

Sex is a natural urge that needs to be fulfilled so if you get escorts for the physical pleasure that's fine. You shouldn't care about the man-made label of being a virgin tho. Just do whatever you want to do it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks.

No one has ever been judged for being a virgin, it's been because of the way they look.

This.

 

[Count Yorga]

you'll grow stronger when you realize you don't need what soyciety tells you you do.

 

[Raider919]

us thefact that you haven't been infected with soysciety's weakness to resist the demasculinization harder

 

[Darkoff]

us thefact that you haven't been infected with soysciety's weakness to resist the demasculinization harder

Huh?

 

[Incline]

When I was 14 or 15, on my way home from football training with two of my teammates, the other two were talking about their relationships and then out of nowhere one of them said "he'll be a virgin till he's 40, look at him" and the other guy laughed and said "that's so mean" and I just laughed it off. Later when I got on the bus I was looking at my reflection in the window trying to work out what was so wrong with my appearance. I was already having so many bad experiences similar to that, in relation to lookism, around that time so it didn't really affect me too much.

It's affected me more though now as an almost 21 year old. In being so desperate for a lover I've been reflecting on all of my past experiences going back and forth on whether or not I really am that ugly and whether or not it's worth the energy going out of my way to find a relationship with the negligible energy I even have left.

Because of my desperation of being loved by somebody I keep on having these arguements to myself where I go back on forth on whether or not I'm really that ugly. And when I have these arguements in my head this experience is one of the main ones that I look back on seels the nail in the coffin to me when it comes to the question of am I capable of ever being loved.

It will get worse before it gets better

22-23 has been BY FAR the WORST YEARS of my life so far. 24-27 has been pretty chill I guess. My situation is much worse now than it was when I was 23 but when you grow older you start feeling less and less you just get used to the pain and suffering so it doesn't weight so heavy anymore.

This meme is pretty accurate:

 

[Incline]

Also I can't believe I've been on this site for 4 years already. Everything just got worse for me since I joined.

Shit is brutal.

 

[Made in Heaven]

Never ever hang out with normies

It will get worse before it gets better

22-23 has been BY FAR the WORST YEARS of my life so far. 24-27 has been pretty chill I guess. My situation is much worse now than it was when I was 23 but when you grow older you start feeling less and less you just get used to the pain and suffering so it doesn't weight so heavy anymore.

This meme is pretty accurate:

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So true. Honestly at this point, I'm almost content with rotting away my existence and just cooming when I need to. Sure it will make my parents sad that I won't get married and have kids and I'm not gonna lie I want kids too, but I've almost reached a point of numbness that I can't seem to care anymore. There's only so much sadness and depression your brain can experience before you go numb to it all. I just want a comfy job to work full time to keep a roof over my head. Don't give afuck about anything all too much as long as I can have that

 

[Darkoff]

It will get worse before it gets better

22-23 has been BY FAR the WORST YEARS of my life so far. 24-27 has been pretty chill I guess. My situation is much worse now than it was when I was 23 but when you grow older you start feeling less and less you just get used to the pain and suffering so it doesn't weight so heavy anymore.

This meme is pretty accurate:

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Also I can't believe I've been on this site for 4 years already. Everything just got worse for me since I joined.

Shit is brutal.

I first started browsing when I just turned 17 in 2019. Now it's nearly 2024 and I'm about to turn 21. Over.

Wdym everything got worse for you singe you joined? Is that because of the forum or is it just your personal life?

And what was so bad between the ages of 22 and 23?


So far in my life the worst years were 14-17 where I got bullied in school and then 19-20 (this year and last year) where both my mental and physical health have been terrible and I've been through many bad lookism experiences as well.

When I was younger I was somewhat able to ignore all of my bad lookism experiences, no girls having interest in me and my poor health but now as a 20 year old my only choice is to live in the moment I can't think about the future hoping for a miracle to happen like I was able to do when I was younger.

Never ever hang out with normies


So true. Honestly at this point, I'm almost content with rotting away my existence and just cooming when I need to. Sure it will make my parents sad that I won't get married and have kids and I'm not gonna lie I want kids too, but I've almost reached a point of numbness that I can't seem to care anymore. There's only so much sadness and depression your brain can experience before you go numb to it all. I just want a comfy job to work full time to keep a roof over my head. Don't give afuck about anything all too much as long as I can have that

I can relate. It's a shame because I want children so fucking bad but I have no choice but to rot. How old are you btw?

 

[Incline]

Wdym everything got worse for you singe you joined? Is that because of the forum or is it just your personal life?

I was better looking, was in better shape and had much more social contact 4 years ago. I have none of that now. This forum didn't make my life worse JFL, it's just a nice coping forum for me to write sad things that I could not write anywhere else on the internet or I would get banned for being incel.

And what was so bad between the ages of 22 and 23?

22-23 is when I was starting to finally get fully blackpilled and joining/observing incel spaces. I could not accept that I will suffer for my entire life. I used to cry a lot. I also worked in a shitty job with a lot of zoomers in a restaurant that would tease me every day. I also got in trouble there because I asked on whatsupp some woman employee from the work group if she wanted to hang out and she said no and then later reported me to HR JFL, cant even text somebody or you get reported HR and fired nice life JFL. Funniest shit is I didnt even want to date her or anything she was a fat and ugly bitch I was genuinely trying to be nice and make friends with people there but couldnt do it, they treat me like shit anyway.

Anyway, at 22-23 I was very sad that I had not normal life like others. All my 'friends' (not really my friends, I hated this people) at univresity and everywhere had girlfriends and fucked a lot of girls, and they went to parties and clubs. They got invited places too (i never got invite anywhere even when I was with popular kids), I went through A LOT of effort to try to socialize with people, I joined clubs and meetup groups, I went to anime groups but nowhere I felt welcome, always outcast. This made my depression much worse. Its one thing to just be sad, but when you TRY and still FAIL you feel even worse. I tried so hard and kept failing, that made me lose my mind, i cried at night a lot. Also I lved in tiny room with other people so I had to cry very quiet so others would not hear.

You know how much it hurts to cry silently? It creates a massive pain in your chest. Only people who cried without making noise understand what I am talking about, I cried silently so I had massive pain chest and couldnt breath, because I had to force myself not to make the crying-breath noise and that was very hurtful. I was totally hopeless man, very in despair.

I literally cried everyday 22-23.

I haven't cried since I turned 24 years of age. It's been almost 4 years now since I cried the last time.

I don't feel anything anymore.

 

[Made in Heaven]

I can relate. It's a shame because I want children so fucking bad but I have no choice but to rot. How old are you btw?

just turned 26. Haven't don't shit with me life

 

[d-fensbill]

It's over for storycels.

 

[Darkoff]

I also worked in a shitty job with a lot of zoomers in a restaurant that would tease me every day.

How do you even work in a restaurant as an ugly man? Did you ever have any bad experiences with customers? Tease you how?

Forgive me for asking all these questions but I post so much of my stories here and barely ever actually come across people capable of normal conversations there's so many low effort shitposters. It's also nice to come across someone who I can relate to because even here I feel like an outsider.

I tried so hard and kept failing, that made me lose my mind

I can relate. Recently I've used up so much of the little energy I have improving my health and appearance and falling in love and chasing and fantasising about girls who have no interest in me whatsoever. I keep going through a cycle of being healthy to being worn out just from being alive and then I'm bed ridden for two weeks whilst eating and drinking almost nothing.

I literally cried everyday 22-23.

I haven't cried since I turned 24 years of age. It's been almost 4 years now since I cried the last time.

I don't feel anything anymore.

Sorry to hear that.

I used to cry every night when I was 15 in school because I was being bullied and ostracized for my appearance and everything was going to shit and I had nothing going for me whatsoever.

After 15 I became numb and only cried maybe once a year on average. There's been times where I've wanted to cry but haven't been able to.

Recently I've just come out of a terrible rut of bad experiences which I will share here soon. Two days ago I was laying in bed literally just moaning out loud from mental pain. Not even crying. And then yesterday my body was attempting to cry, I had teary eyes and my throat felt so swollen and painful I almost couldn't breathe.

 

[Incline]

How do you even work in a restaurant as an ugly man? Did you ever have any bad experiences with customers? Tease you how?

It's very simple. In restaurant ugly people or people who could not speak English that well go work in the kitchen area. Good looking people or women go to work with customers. I almost never worked with customers so I didn't have to deal with them. But working with all this fucking teenagers was a fucking nightmare, they would constantly shit-talk me and take advantage of me.

I used to cry every night when I was 15 in school because I was being bullied and ostracized for my appearance and everything was going to shit and I had nothing going for me whatsoever.

After 15 I became numb and only cried maybe once a year on average. There's been times where I've wanted to cry but haven't been able to.

Recently I've just come out of a terrible rut of bad experiences which I will share here soon. Two days ago I was laying in bed literally just moaning out loud from mental pain. Not even crying. And then yesterday my body was attempting to cry, I had teary eyes and my throat felt so swollen and painful I almost couldn't breathe.

I don't really know what to say that will make you feel better. I guess just know that there are other people in the world like us and we are not alone suffering like this, so at least we are not alone in this but that is not much of a comforting thing though...

I don't really know how to help you or myself otherwise I wouldn't be here xD

 

[Darkoff]

just turned 26. Haven't don't shit with me life

How does it feel being 26 as opposed to 20 in general. Like are you much more mature and intelligent at that age? Do you look back at yourself as a 20 year old as really young? Or does the time go by so quickly that you don't feel any different. What changed for you after 20?

 

[Darkoff]

they would constantly shit-talk me and take advantage of me.

Wdym?

I don't really know how to help you or myself otherwise I wouldn't be here xD

There is nothing we can do. We were born as ugly slaves in a prison and it's not our fault. We just have to make the most out of our lives.

 

[AnilBashir]

Jesus Christ bro that’s rough. Sorry to hear that shit

 

[Incline]

Wdym?

Just make fun of me and how I look, constantly ask me about my girlfriend even though it was obvious I don't have one. Make me do shit jobs around the kitchen, call me to do things nobody else wanted to do, etc, etc... It was just an awful time, reminded me of school bullying JFL.

I reported this to managers many times but they don't give a fuck, in places like this nobody gives a fk about you, you are easily replaceable minimum wage employee. We had new people starting there every week jfl the turn-over rate was insane.

 

[HomicidalSuicidal88]

Life is to brutel to even want to cope anymore

 

[Made in Heaven]

I was better looking, was in better shape and had much more social contact 4 years ago. I have none of that now. This forum didn't make my life worse JFL, it's just a nice coping forum for me to write sad things that I could not write anywhere else on the internet or I would get banned for being incel.


22-23 is when I was starting to finally get fully blackpilled and joining/observing incel spaces. I could not accept that I will suffer for my entire life. I used to cry a lot. I also worked in a shitty job with a lot of zoomers in a restaurant that would tease me every day. I also got in trouble there because I asked on whatsupp some woman employee from the work group if she wanted to hang out and she said no and then later reported me to HR JFL, cant even text somebody or you get reported HR and fired nice life JFL. Funniest shit is I didnt even want to date her or anything she was a fat and ugly bitch I was genuinely trying to be nice and make friends with people there but couldnt do it, they treat me like shit anyway.

Anyway, at 22-23 I was very sad that I had not normal life like others. All my 'friends' (not really my friends, I hated this people) at univresity and everywhere had girlfriends and fucked a lot of girls, and they went to parties and clubs. They got invited places too (i never got invite anywhere even when I was with popular kids), I went through A LOT of effort to try to socialize with people, I joined clubs and meetup groups, I went to anime groups but nowhere I felt welcome, always outcast. This made my depression much worse. Its one thing to just be sad, but when you TRY and still FAIL you feel even worse. I tried so hard and kept failing, that made me lose my mind, i cried at night a lot. Also I lved in tiny room with other people so I had to cry very quiet so others would not hear.

You know how much it hurts to cry silently? It creates a massive pain in your chest. Only people who cried without making noise understand what I am talking about, I cried silently so I had massive pain chest and couldnt breath, because I had to force myself not to make the crying-breath noise and that was very hurtful. I was totally hopeless man, very in despair.

I literally cried everyday 22-23.

I haven't cried since I turned 24 years of age. It's been almost 4 years now since I cried the last time.

I don't feel anything anymore.

The fact that you tried all this socializing maxxinf and still failed makes me glad I never tried to socialize with normies or popular kids since it would have just been a waste of time

 

[Made in Heaven]

How does it feel being 26 as opposed to 20 in general. Like are you much more mature and intelligent at that age? Do you look back at yourself as a 20 year old as really young? Or does the time go by so quickly that you don't feel any different. What changed for you after 20?

Lol fuck no. I don't feel mature at all. Aside from going bald now, nothing has changed since I was 20. Same job, same education level. I still feel like a 15 year old who hasn't reached full adulthood and I doubt I will ever reach full adulthood.

The thing that makes this so fucking brutal is that my sister who is 18 just married a 6'2 man who is 20 and he has such a great job its unreal. I feel like a child next to this 20 year old man despite me being 26