SuicideFuel Having no one fucking sucks

[theozz]

Being a sub5 fat mentalcel sucks, I have no one to talk to and my homicidal and suicidal thoughts get worse every single fucking day and im starting to go insane and im also sober lately coz I dont wanna be hungover at lectures. I just can’t stop feeling this way and to make matters worse i cant swallow pills and I can’t talk to anyone coz I’ll get admitted to a psych ward coz im in U*cuc*K and no therapist or doctor will just prescribe me meds, medical weed is probably the best thing I could be given but nah, I fucking hate this shit. I don’t know how to cope anymore.
How can I cope (no smoking, drinking or drugs) I am trying to keep staying sober until I finish university. I just losing hope and think imma end up breaking and hurt myself or others badly. I am still fully functional and not showing many signs of being crazy except my emotions and thoughts so I think I’m mentally stable enough to not get help but not stable enough to feel okay, and my body is always in pain. I just feel like such a bitch complaining but I genuinely don’t know how to stop myself getting too far, another reason why I dont wanna drink, i dont trust myself anymore. Any advice or just anything would help. Thanks for listening to my rant

 

[Cuckoja]

I feel the same, except i never drink or do drugs. I feel so fucking bad and i cant tell anyone, my siblings are already irritated that i quit my job, if i start talking my suicidal thoughts they would ignore it and hold it against me. I wish i had an advice. Vent here as much as you can, its what i do and it kinda helps.

 

[unwantedloser95]

And to top it off, society is fucked. I could deal with being an incel if life wasn't so utterly pointless and just a constant money drain.

 

[pwnedcel]

I relate with you brocel. on one note coping only works for a little until you just loose your mind again, and the same hobby/solution you run to no longer works. the most ig is to just vent out here than to any normie or cuck that would drain the hell out of you. just don’t let it get ahead of you this world is an absolute hell, especially with how fucked up it’s become.

 

[theozz]

I relate with you brocel. on one note coping only works for a little until you just loose your mind again, and the same hobby/solution you run to no longer works. the most ig is to just vent out here than to any normie or cuck that would drain the hell out of you. just don’t let it get ahead of you this world is an absolute hell, especially with how fucked up it’s become.

Yeah, hardly anyone even has advice for me, and there is no help for loneliness because now I’m so isolated the thought of having to talk drains me

 

[rcnfive]

i have epilepsy and had a seizure attack. i had to crawl on all 4's like a beast to my bedroom to get my medicine, seizing all the way. also broke my nose from a seizure slamming on the floor. i will be roping soon so at least i wont live long this way.

 

[theozz]

i have epilepsy and had a seizure attack. i had to crawl on all 4's like a beast to my bedroom to get my medicine, seizing all the way. also broke my nose from a seizure slamming on the floor. i will be roping soon so at least i wont live long this way.

Im so sorry bro, what triggered your epilepsy? (Sorry if personal question)

 

[rcnfive]

Im so sorry bro, what triggered your epilepsy? (Sorry if personal question)

im not sure what triggered this attack, it was by far the worst i've ever had. i generally am well controlled. usually my trigger is sleep related - if i wake up suddenly and get up and start moving i will seize. i need to wake up slowly and get my brain 'booted' properly.

 

[theozz]

im not sure what triggered this attack, it was by far the worst i've ever had. i generally am well controlled. usually my trigger is sleep related - if i wake up suddenly and get up and start moving i will seize. i need to wake up slowly and get my brain 'booted' properly.

That sucks man im sorry u gotta live like that and the fact it can’t be helped is the worst part. I genuinely wish h the best, ik it doesn’t change anything but I hope u don’t have to go through a seizure any time soon.

 

[pwnedcel]

Yeah, hardly anyone even has advice for me, and there is no help for loneliness because now I’m so isolated the thought of having to talk drains me

sometimes music helps, of course only for a bit. the loneliness just becomes embedded into you and you become cold instead of crying 24/7. ofc depression and other mental issues gets worse, but what hurts the most is having all of it in your head and no one to help. genuinely I hope you get better and anybody else as well. but ngl hope is a dream or miracle to even happen.

 

[theozz]

sometimes music helps, of course only for a bit. the loneliness just becomes embedded into you and you become cold instead of crying 24/7. ofc depression and other mental issues gets worse, but what hurts the most is having all of it in your head and no one to help. genuinely I hope you get better and anybody else as well. but ngl hope is a dream or miracle to even happen.

I just think of killing myself 24/7 literally, and my mother and stepdad calling me moody pisses me the fuck off like yeah im miserable im not in a fucking mood though. I don’t cry much anymore because I feel like shit 24/365 nothing really sets me off.
When I got hit and had random shit thrown at me today and grabbed by the throat and threatened I nearly cried coz im ND (autism) and touch kinda sets me off but luckily I managed to get through it

 

[pwnedcel]

I just think of killing myself 24/7 literally, and my mother and stepdad calling me moody pisses me the fuck off like yeah im miserable im not in a fucking mood though. I don’t cry much anymore because I feel like shit 24/365 nothing really sets me off.
When I got hit and had random shit thrown at me today and grabbed by the throat and threatened I nearly cried coz im ND (autism) and touch kinda sets me off but luckily I managed to get through it

holy shit, that’s so real the fact you don’t cry. I have to purposely listen to depressing music to set myself off, other than that pain, bullying or whatever doesn’t affect much but add onto more reasons to commit suicide. I especially hate it when people call you certain things just like you describe. i don’t use my fucking energy on normies who are utterly worthless and ignorant.
I gotta give you props that you pushed through that even while being ND, and genuinely sorry for you that you’ve had that happen to you, hence otherwise I see your effort even if you believe it’s not an effort

 

[theozz]

holy shit, that’s so real the fact you don’t cry. I have to purposely listen to depressing music to set myself off, other than that pain, bullying or whatever doesn’t affect much but add onto more reasons to commit suicide. I especially hate it when people call you certain things just like you describe. i don’t use my fucking energy on normies who are utterly worthless and ignorant.
I gotta give you props that you pushed through that even while being ND, and genuinely sorry for you that you’ve had that happen to you, hence otherwise I see your effort even if you believe it’s not an effort

I used to watch Corecore TikTok’s with sad music but nothing works now, I just feel empty, and thank you for that. The main reason I probably haven’t killed myself is I believe when I finish university, my dad will be proud and when I move in with him I may be able to cope better as throughout my childhood and early adolescence I loved playing video games with him online and the thought of having my own pc and playing WoW and osrs with him excites me as playing with him was the last thing i remember actually enjoying anything. And when I’m there I can most likely smoke (if I can’t I’ll just bake my own edibles) and I can get wasted without a worry and jerk off and rot on my pc and play mmorpgs, rot on .is and play horror games

 

[theozz]

I used to watch Corecore TikTok’s with sad music but nothing works now, I just feel empty, and thank you for that. The main reason I probably haven’t killed myself is I believe when I finish university, my dad will be proud and when I move in with him I may be able to cope better as throughout my childhood and early adolescence I loved playing video games with him online and the thought of having my own pc and playing WoW and osrs with him excites me as playing with him was the last thing i remember actually enjoying anything. And when I’m there I can most likely smoke (if I can’t I’ll just bake my own edibles) and I can get wasted without a worry and jerk off and rot on my pc and play mmorpgs, rot on .is and play horror games

Still shitty life but it will be easier to cope

 

[rcnfive]

That sucks man im sorry u gotta live like that and the fact it can’t be helped is the worst part. I genuinely wish h the best, ik it doesn’t change anything but I hope u don’t have to go through a seizure any time soon.

thanks man. this place is pretty hostile always good to have a brocel around. wish you the best of this shit life as well

 

[pwnedcel]

I used to watch Corecore TikTok’s with sad music but nothing works now, I just feel empty, and thank you for that. The main reason I probably haven’t killed myself is I believe when I finish university, my dad will be proud and when I move in with him I may be able to cope better as throughout my childhood and early adolescence I loved playing video games with him online and the thought of having my own pc and playing WoW and osrs with him excites me as playing with him was the last thing i remember actually enjoying anything. And when I’m there I can most likely smoke (if I can’t I’ll just bake my own edibles) and I can get wasted without a worry and jerk off and rot on my pc and play mmorpgs, rot on .is and play horror games

LMAO, TikTok is just normieslop now so good on u for quitting that corecore shit. I was into that for a while and then got burnout from it. what a waste of time for me. but for u it sounds like a better plan im not against it at all and on a good note at the at least you’ve got a goal or plan to achieve with your dad. I always thought it would be nice to have a dad who played games as well, but in my family everyone is a self-centered fuck. ofc im not degrading your situation but i wish to have a dad like u described. cause all my childhood i was abused by both my parents and none of them still have taken accountability. if that was the last thing that truly made joy for you, id strive for it. if you ask me i think that idea is a good way to cope, it wont even matter anyway what u do in the end cause we all will be gone at some point. I do same and LDAR in bed all day and jerk off and not eat till someone offers it. idk if it’s me but playing any game for me no longer fills the hole in me anymore, so I’d be glad that you still have some things ahead of you. but still otherwise im happy you have a foreseeable plan.

 

[pwnedcel]

Still shitty life but it will be easier to cope

true, I hope you achieve all of what you want in life and you honestly don’t even sound crazy to do any of those. your the realest post I’ve seen today, based brocel

 

[theozz]

LMAO, TikTok is just normieslop now so good on u for quitting that corecore shit. I was into that for a while and then got burnout from it. what a waste of time for me. but for u it sounds like a better plan im not against it at all and on a good note at the at least you’ve got a goal or plan to achieve with your dad. I always thought it would be nice to have a dad who played games as well, but in my family everyone is a self-centered fuck. ofc im not degrading your situation but i wish to have a dad like u described. cause all my childhood i was abused by both my parents and none of them still have taken accountability. if that was the last thing that truly made joy for you, id strive for it. if you ask me i think that idea is a good way to cope, it wont even matter anyway what u do in the end cause we all will be gone at some point. I do same and LDAR in bed all day and jerk off and not eat till someone offers it. idk if it’s me but playing any game for me no longer fills the hole in me anymore, so I’d be glad that you still have some things ahead of you. but still otherwise im happy you have a foreseeable plan.

Thanks man, it means a lot. I just gotta thug out shitty university life and home life with my mum for 2 more years then im free.

true, I hope you achieve all of what you want in life and you honestly don’t even sound crazy to do any of those. your the realest post I’ve seen today, based brocel

 

[XDFLAMEBOY]

Yeah, hardly anyone even has advice for me, and there is no help for loneliness because now I’m so isolated the thought of having to talk drains me

People will dislike you if you judge, condemn, complain, or criticize too much I fucking hate people

 

[St.Greypiller]

Being a sub5 fat mentalcel sucks, I have no one to talk to and my homicidal and suicidal thoughts get worse every single fucking day and im starting to go insane and im also sober lately coz I dont wanna be hungover at lectures. I just can’t stop feeling this way and to make matters worse i cant swallow pills and I can’t talk to anyone coz I’ll get admitted to a psych ward coz im in U*cuc*K and no therapist or doctor will just prescribe me meds, medical weed is probably the best thing I could be given but nah, I fucking hate this shit. I don’t know how to cope anymore.
How can I cope (no smoking, drinking or drugs) I am trying to keep staying sober until I finish university. I just losing hope and think imma end up breaking and hurt myself or others badly. I am still fully functional and not showing many signs of being crazy except my emotions and thoughts so I think I’m mentally stable enough to not get help but not stable enough to feel okay, and my body is always in pain. I just feel like such a bitch complaining but I genuinely don’t know how to stop myself getting too far, another reason why I dont wanna drink, i dont trust myself anymore. Any advice or just anything would help. Thanks for listening to my rant

i havent had any friends my whole life , incel trait ngl

 

[St.Greypiller]

Being a sub5 fat mentalcel sucks, I have no one to talk to and my homicidal and suicidal thoughts get worse every single fucking day and im starting to go insane and im also sober lately coz I dont wanna be hungover at lectures. I just can’t stop feeling this way and to make matters worse i cant swallow pills and I can’t talk to anyone coz I’ll get admitted to a psych ward coz im in U*cuc*K and no therapist or doctor will just prescribe me meds, medical weed is probably the best thing I could be given but nah, I fucking hate this shit. I don’t know how to cope anymore.
How can I cope (no smoking, drinking or drugs) I am trying to keep staying sober until I finish university. I just losing hope and think imma end up breaking and hurt myself or others badly. I am still fully functional and not showing many signs of being crazy except my emotions and thoughts so I think I’m mentally stable enough to not get help but not stable enough to feel okay, and my body is always in pain. I just feel like such a bitch complaining but I genuinely don’t know how to stop myself getting too far, another reason why I dont wanna drink, i dont trust myself anymore. Any advice or just anything would help. Thanks for listening to my rant

also DNR but i relate

 

[theozz]

People will dislike you if you judge, condemn, complain, or criticize too much I fucking hate people

yeah, I don’t even try to talk to normies anymore i just prefer to remain silent as they will never understand me, they are all just politically correct robots with no individuality and they are highly unsophisticated and all like the same faggot social media trends

 

[theozz]

i havent had any friends my whole life , incel trait ngl

I remember having a friend when I was 7 called Finley but he left way accross the country and my mother lost his mothers phone number so I’ve never contacted him, I’ve never had a friend since then, ive had a few aqaintences that I was neutral with but the majority bullied me and laughed at my every move or just fullout ignored me as if I’m not a human. Either way I always get treated inhuman. Whether it’s physical abuse, humiliation or alienation from people I will never be treated as an equal I am always seen as below others

 

[St.Greypiller]

I remember having a friend when I was 7 called Finley but he left way accross the country and my mother lost his mothers phone number so I’ve never contacted him, I’ve never had a friend since then, ive had a few aqaintences that I was neutral with but the majority bullied me and laughed at my every move or just fullout ignored me as if I’m not a human. Either way I always get treated inhuman. Whether it’s physical abuse, humiliation or alienation from people I will never be treated as an equal I am always seen as below others

i have never had friends my entire life , i literally have never been able to connect with anyone.

 

[theozz]

i have never had friends my entire life , i literally have never been able to connect with anyone.

Im sorry man. If it helps, I’ve never been able to connect either and I have a majorly distorted self image and im autistic and I don’t know who I am, like I gain huge interests in things and randomly stop, I gave myself hobbies to cope but they never last and im finally accepting my situation that im a lonely loser and doomed to rot and die alone.

 

[Emba]

i have epilepsy and had a seizure attack. i had to crawl on all 4's like a beast to my bedroom to get my medicine, seizing all the way. also broke my nose from a seizure slamming on the floor. i will be roping soon so at least i wont live long this way.

Brutal way to die bro

My condolences...

I'll be gasping for air... Or hopefully in my slep

 

[Animecel2D]

@ihaveno1

 

[SlayerSlayer]

you should really look into using AI to not deal with humans anymore