I've read users here saying they have truly gave up, others saying that they don't looksmax because it won't make a difference, but have you TRULY gave up?
By that I mean not taking care of you weight, your skin, your clothes, etc. Like if you do skincare then you haven't gave up, I personally haven't
Its just that I know I need surgery to fix my disgusting recessed face, but the years it would take me to save up enough money to PROBABLY NOT EVEN GETTING OUT OF INCELDOM make me wonder if is there even a point in life...
My family wants me now to study and go to college, but why? That doesn't assure me a good future, I'll probably end up as those Asian dudes who work all their life and live depressed.
what do you think?
inb4 volcel, but please hear my story.
I have been bullied in elementary through high school. I don't go to uni since I don't have compulsory attendance and I study at home by myself. I have no idea when I began being conscious, but when that happened, I started analyzing those around me. I knew that looks were all that mattered, that foids were advantaged in society, and all the bp stuff. I knew it before looking it up, it was almost an instinct.
I have, or rather, I had, or rather again, I thought I had friends, over the past 3 yrs.
A few months ago, I had a realization while in the shower: I have gone all my life repudiating the looks ideology, but I kept curating it in a way that made me feel an idiot and a hypocrite.
When I stopped trimming my hair and shaving my beard, at first those around me were like "bro haha you'd better trim and shave haha"
After a few months, people started getting pissed off at me, judging me, calling me a depressed loser, an incel and a retard. Those same people I used to call friends, turned against me and started shaming me because of that, and because of my health issues that have arisen in the last months (which made me feel like shit more than the shame for the facial hair).
My mother stopped giving me what she called "nice clothes" and instead told me that I could only wear "shitty clothes" (for her, gym clothes, sweaters, shorts and the like, basically anything that isn't a fancy jumper or jeans, are shitty to go outside). Inb4 rich, no, actually I am on the poorer side, my mother is simply a retarded foids like any other, wants me to play the status game and all that bullshit. I told her "aight then, I never wanted those clothes in the first place" and she got so pissed off. Kek.
Then, I simply decided to cut those that I could cut off, off. No reason given. No attention spared for them anymore. I ran this experiment to see who would stick around; between parents, relatives and friends, only 2 survived the test. Those two, as they're also neurodivergent, I will keep close. The rest can fuck off.
So yeah. I am a KHHV incel, but that was a thing even when I took care of myself wayyy too much. I realized the hypocrisy of playing by the rules of a system that rejects me regardless, so I simply stopped playing. And it feels very liberating. I know I am doing myself a disservice because it is reasonable to assume that my chances of ascending are even lower now, but I care less about that now.
I ain't fat tho, normal BMI.
Also, go to college and study. If it is not some humanities bullshit, chances are you'll be able to find better jobs with better future salary prospects. But I am a eurotard, what do I know... where I am from, STEm unis are a social ladder, and a potent one at that.
