Communicating is difficult for me, even when I did "try" I'm not sure if any of them realized I was trying. I have similar issues with making friends, at least in person. I just never know what to say, much less when and how to say it. When I was an adolescent I was essentially forced to attend excessive amounts of therapy which didn't help me at all.
I tried meeting girls online quite a bit a few years ago, it didn't end well. After trying to initiate conversations with hundreds of foids most didn't respond, others directly told me they weren't interested. I only managed to start communicating with two, both of which only wanted to use me as their emotional punching bag.
I wish I knew how to try.