I do not know what I was thinking. I guess I hoped if I could bare it in silence without leaving, I had exemplified quite a bit of mental strength to prep me for a future of isolation. I went to a steakhouse by myself surrounded by couples, death stares, and sharp glances. I followed the waitress and was seated in the very middle of the room. Infront of me a large Jewish family, next to me on the right what appeared to be homo-sexual African American couple (two men), to my left a man with a speech impediment, ginger, slightly overweight, balding, but very tall most likely 6’5, with his disgusting ugly overweight date, and diagonal an extremely attractive chad. I observed my surrounds and listened into all conversations while eating. I mainly listened to the date on the table next to me, and diagonal of me. Got a really good cut and crab and rice btw great food. The chad was boring, barely talked, yet the woman was eccentric about him and responded very well. Even though the man on the date next to me was much more attractive then his grotesque obese counterpart and told an interesting story that even peaked my interest (about a vacation to Nepal), she looked almost angry, and do not respond, just nodded and looked down a lot, showed signs of boredom. Brutal. I was being stared down, felt ashamed to be there alone the whole time. I think it’s good to face reality head on every once in a while. Just wanted to share my experience.
