VλREN
Depressed idiot
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It’s hard to explain i guess
But when around large groups of people or just people in general I am high inhibition and bunker down in isolation.
But there where times were I was able to cheat it.
Like I remember the time I was 18 back in 2021 and screwing around with shopping cart that I found in a deserted meth camp.
I remember screwing around with it on the bike path and I eventually found a hill and was riding down it constantly and people obviously took notice and would stare at me.
I remember this dude who was slightly older then me asked me about it and I said something edgy that made him laugh.
I can’t really think of any other examples at the moment but I probably have a few more.
Although I have never gone out of my way to interact with females, that’s a whole different dilemma. Like you’re not going to see me cold approaching foids or anything. Hell even if a foid walks past me I am not doing anything but staring ahead
But I know No Fap plays a role, both on a hormone level and psychological one. But then again I was a lot less broken at 18 then 23.
Five years of the same shit with no developmental change will cause some problems right?
But when around large groups of people or just people in general I am high inhibition and bunker down in isolation.
But there where times were I was able to cheat it.
Like I remember the time I was 18 back in 2021 and screwing around with shopping cart that I found in a deserted meth camp.
I remember screwing around with it on the bike path and I eventually found a hill and was riding down it constantly and people obviously took notice and would stare at me.
I remember this dude who was slightly older then me asked me about it and I said something edgy that made him laugh.
I can’t really think of any other examples at the moment but I probably have a few more.
Although I have never gone out of my way to interact with females, that’s a whole different dilemma. Like you’re not going to see me cold approaching foids or anything. Hell even if a foid walks past me I am not doing anything but staring ahead
But I know No Fap plays a role, both on a hormone level and psychological one. But then again I was a lot less broken at 18 then 23.
Five years of the same shit with no developmental change will cause some problems right?





