I called her yesterday and decided to ask her out again. Surprisingly, she agreed to meet me despite the 1st date being shit.
We didn't go for coffee this time but just for a stroll at the beach since it was night time. We eventually sat down at a cape where there were multiple couples around us making out. I saw this a sign because my sex deprived brain can't help but cope.
Just like the previous date, we talked about anime and movies. At one point, there was some silence. She was just sitting there looking at me. I decided to make a move. I asked her if she wanted to kiss. She agreed and we started making out.
While, kissing her I went ahead and groped her tits. She wasn't bothered since groping is less violating than kissing. At one point, I began kissing her neck. I had no idea what I was doing at the time so I did whatever I felt like. She just wouldn't stop so we kept going for like 10 minutes.
After that, we started talking again but this time she seemed elevated so I thought she liked me.
Then, we went to my place. At my bedroom we started making out again. I was about to take her shirt off but she said "I think we should leave it. I'm not feeling like it". I stopped at that moment. Then she told me "Sorry but I have to go" and she left.
I was devasted. I felt like I would finally escape inceldom only to have my hopes crushed at the last moment. I'm destined to be a virgin. Fuck genetics. If I was Chad she would have fucked me on the first date. There is no fucking escape. If you didn't do it until 20 it's just not gonna happen.
TL;DR I went out with a girl for a second time, we made out and when we were about to have sex she changed her mind and left me