It's Over Had another episode. I feel like I'm losing my mind.

[WeirdPanda]

Just had another (sort of) manic episode a few hours ago, this has been happening very occasionally out of the random throughout this whole month. I can't think straight during these episodes and my mind just keeps racing, and I just start doing random shit and feeling some sort of mad confidence. The last one I had come here because I was shouting and talking to myself very out loud at night and I just woke up like shit after.

I'm starting to think I may actually have a mood altering disorder. I feel like I'm going insane, one second I'm feeling the best I've ever felt in my life and the next I'm feeling like the worst miserable trash and all of the energy suddendly disappears.

Gosh, this is such a fucking mess. God, if you're gonna give me the this shit then atleast you could have made it last longer before crashing out.

Ugh... this is so fucking embarassing. I feel like shit. Gooosh fucking dammit...

 

[HotDogCel]

Use the energy to make something enjoyable while it's still there.

 

[WeirdPanda]

Use the energy to make something enjoyable while it's still there.

I can't think straight man. My episode is already ending right now I'm pretty sure. I'm starting to feel like shit again they're usually very short-lived and end once I start to become more self-aware.

 

[HotDogCel]

I can't think straight man. My episode is already ending right now I'm pretty sure. I'm starting to feel like shit again they're usually very short-lived and end once I start to become more self-aware.

Over

 

[V c z s q e]

So you are fucking crazy.

 

[WeirdPanda]

I'm starting to calm down now, so I think I may be able to answer...

I'm 100% sure that I have BPD. Some of my old therapists dismissed it because of ADHD diagnosis but I'm fairly sure these sort of episodes aren't normal in ADHD.

I also semi-stalked and manipulated a foid into thinking I tried to commit suicide, and I would often follow and stalk her boyfriend at school.

Obviously this should not discredit any takes I make on this site, but to answer your question it would be a yes.

 

[WeirdPanda]

So you are fucking crazy.

I forgot to quote, fuck

 

[ParasiteToSociety]

So you are fucking crazy.

It’s only normal to lose it if you’re living a life of hell.