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I have had to go through a few different group treatment programs.
Rehabs.
Always the same as it always was.
I sit silently and I am ignored. Even after months in the group, no one had given me their phone number, email.
It’s like school all over again.
That sort of social isolation is what made me want to get high in the first place. And after each group I felt more like getting wasted than before the group began.
I graduated rehab early. I never missed a group and I passed all my drug tests.
One might think that rehab was therefore successful. And I am still clean and sober even after all these years.
But rehab was actually a failure.
My experiences there did more harm to me than good.
Forced into a situation where I am an outcast. Not able to leave and just have to sit there and take the abuse.
And that’s what it is, abuse. That’s what it is to be in a group, but pushed a thousand miles away.
Rehabs.
Always the same as it always was.
I sit silently and I am ignored. Even after months in the group, no one had given me their phone number, email.
It’s like school all over again.
That sort of social isolation is what made me want to get high in the first place. And after each group I felt more like getting wasted than before the group began.
I graduated rehab early. I never missed a group and I passed all my drug tests.
One might think that rehab was therefore successful. And I am still clean and sober even after all these years.
But rehab was actually a failure.
My experiences there did more harm to me than good.
Forced into a situation where I am an outcast. Not able to leave and just have to sit there and take the abuse.
And that’s what it is, abuse. That’s what it is to be in a group, but pushed a thousand miles away.
