Hello incels community,
English is not my first language, I live in Europe, and I am an incel.
For most of my life I had to struggle to be accepted in a group, without success not so ever, most of the time being ostracized and bullied.
I have no friends, and I am the most of the time in my bedroom, I have GAD and SAD, depression, plus probably Asperger's Syndrome (it was lastly diagnosed to me by a therapist).
Since 2015, I forced myself into getting out more, joining different meeting and social groups in real events, traveled.
So, I did went out, tried to meet new people, at first some guys I hoped would help me into meeting girls, since I couldn't approach them due to my anxiety, and when I tried I was always rejected in the first seconds. This went wrong, despite very suffering effort to socialize, I did get some FB and Whatsapp contacts, but nobody never contacted me, nor wished me happy birthday (despite everyone having a notification on the day on FB).
I contacted people always by myself, and made the fatal error to run after them in a desperate wish to a have a friend. That didn't worked. I stopped doing this because in a relationship it's always both ways, you don't always contact one-way, while the other never do it.
In these events, I met a lot of a$$holes and bullies, I was often violently ejected from bars and clubs by stupid though bouncers, just because I answered back to chads or passed a remark (per ex., when some chad pushed me hardly on purpose, then I realized it was just to eliminate me from the place; or when I answered an insult from a bully). I had no chance to stand against these pigs, neither to compete with them. Places, were women act like typical sluts, and chads have always sex with the nicest girls. These place need to be exterminated.
I don't trust human beings as being good, for me they all are evils, driven by perfidious and very selfish intentions. That's why the incel community exist, either way, if humans were good, they would have taken care of the most vulnerable and weak members of the society. But they act in total indifference, mostly bullying them or ostracism them. Like in the very good example of the night clubs and bars above, were human nature is exposed to the very truth animistic and primitive status.
I stopped now going out and I see no hope in changing my incel condition.
Thank you for reading me.
Cheers,
Johny
English is not my first language, I live in Europe, and I am an incel.
For most of my life I had to struggle to be accepted in a group, without success not so ever, most of the time being ostracized and bullied.
I have no friends, and I am the most of the time in my bedroom, I have GAD and SAD, depression, plus probably Asperger's Syndrome (it was lastly diagnosed to me by a therapist).
Since 2015, I forced myself into getting out more, joining different meeting and social groups in real events, traveled.
So, I did went out, tried to meet new people, at first some guys I hoped would help me into meeting girls, since I couldn't approach them due to my anxiety, and when I tried I was always rejected in the first seconds. This went wrong, despite very suffering effort to socialize, I did get some FB and Whatsapp contacts, but nobody never contacted me, nor wished me happy birthday (despite everyone having a notification on the day on FB).
I contacted people always by myself, and made the fatal error to run after them in a desperate wish to a have a friend. That didn't worked. I stopped doing this because in a relationship it's always both ways, you don't always contact one-way, while the other never do it.
In these events, I met a lot of a$$holes and bullies, I was often violently ejected from bars and clubs by stupid though bouncers, just because I answered back to chads or passed a remark (per ex., when some chad pushed me hardly on purpose, then I realized it was just to eliminate me from the place; or when I answered an insult from a bully). I had no chance to stand against these pigs, neither to compete with them. Places, were women act like typical sluts, and chads have always sex with the nicest girls. These place need to be exterminated.
I don't trust human beings as being good, for me they all are evils, driven by perfidious and very selfish intentions. That's why the incel community exist, either way, if humans were good, they would have taken care of the most vulnerable and weak members of the society. But they act in total indifference, mostly bullying them or ostracism them. Like in the very good example of the night clubs and bars above, were human nature is exposed to the very truth animistic and primitive status.
I stopped now going out and I see no hope in changing my incel condition.
Thank you for reading me.
Cheers,
Johny
