The girl I liked for 5 years. She was my crush. We hung out a lot, I gave her tons of homework and would buy her Starbucks. For years I only jerked off to her pics and fantasized about her. I finally, after so long got the balls to ask her out. We're both 19. She said "you're a great guy and friend but I'm not looking for a relationship right now, I'll have to think about it". I was sad but really thought she meant what she said. A week later she's on another girls story in a party holding a guy and kissing him. I got blackpilled and cucked so hard. Was so sad and hurt, didn't know what to do so I just jerked off to her pics again.
Did research and found out why. I'm an brown ethnic south Asian, 5'4, 4 inches and skinny. The guy was blonde, blue eyed, 6'2 white and fit. Probably hung too. Now she's with Chad while I'm at home jerking off to her pics. Anyways, fuck my life, hoping to make new friends here in the