Venting Going out became the purest form of hell for me

[Bane6]

Well, better said... LIVING became the purest form of hell.

Today I went to the mall and the feeling is purely depressive, it feels like a fucking trauma, all those people, families, happy couples... hugging, kissing and holding hands, going to the movies, eating... Witnessing that fills me with a huge emptiness, that just reminds me of all these years of pure loneliness and unhappiness, not having a single memorable moment or fun moments, just memories of being ignored, forgotten, despised.
Seeing all those young foids, curvy foids with huge asses... All of them in every damn place, and miserably having to settle for just watching them, unable to feel the pleasure of having them all to myself. It's like sitting in a diner full of food while I'm chained and starving and not being able to eat a single thing... just sitting there, watching everyone eat... while I can't... It's a devastating feeling.
I'm out of copes, out of hobbies, out of motivation, out of passion... I can only sit in my place surrounded by darkness.
I can't stand to see life beating me down and leaving me on the ground for much longer... Something must change.

 

[Sans]

Well said.

Thankfully in my small town there's not many couples, and most of the ones there are are older. So it makes going out a bit more bearable.

 

[Darth Aquarius]

How I felt in Target today

 

[Darth Aquarius]

Seeing all those young foids, curvy foids with huge asses... All of them in every damn place, and miserably having to settle for just watching them, unable to feel the pleasure of having them all to myself. It's like sitting in a diner full of food while I'm chained and starving and not being able to eat a single thing... just sitting there, watching everyone eat... while I can't... It's a devastating feeling.

 

[zd60]

Exactly how I feel most times when I go out anywhere, its why nowadays I just try staying home as much as possible