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I don't know how I went from the former to the latter, but I did. As a shortcel also, I feel kind of lonley, but in a comdortable way.
If I could never talk or speak to anyone again, that'd be fine; but I cannot for the life of me pretend to want to talk to or be around others, and that rubs off on them. I sometimes wish I was an only child.
Normies get physically uncomfortable around me because I'm not reciprocating conversation, it doesn't flow, I have nothing to say nor care to say anything... they are like blabbering foids or beastly chimps... I cannot pretend to be interested even if I tried.
That sucks because I see so many NT make friends in a week, and I can't even feel comfortable with someone I've known for years. That someone makes a best friend in a week and I'm sure has mentioned that I'm a loser neet, as a relative they knew brought it up to me, saying "you have all the time in the world since you don't work", implying I can do anything I want with chronic fatigue syndrome. Fuck off!
Normies and Chad will never accept disability of others. If they hate ugly incels, they hate ugly disabledcels even more.
What will happen is they will forget you, and that's fine on my part, it's just when I have to see them that scars me.
I fucked myself over, not entirely of my own doing, but I'm definetly screwed socially. And CBT or the-rapist won't help something so ingrained.
The best I ever felt was being a neet alone for 2 months.
I actually got stuff done, and said probably four words the entire time. I was basically mute. I also became healthier and less faigued. How is that possible? Is the presence of others a burden on my cells?
If you tracked the number of words I speak in a week, it'd probably be 100 compared to over 1,000,000+ for my sisters and their boyfriends, who are even more talkative.
If they even suspect silence, they have to ask stupid questions or whistle to break it. I hate that.
All I want is silence and solitude forever.
Thank you, thank you, thank you!
If I could never talk or speak to anyone again, that'd be fine; but I cannot for the life of me pretend to want to talk to or be around others, and that rubs off on them. I sometimes wish I was an only child.
Normies get physically uncomfortable around me because I'm not reciprocating conversation, it doesn't flow, I have nothing to say nor care to say anything... they are like blabbering foids or beastly chimps... I cannot pretend to be interested even if I tried.
That sucks because I see so many NT make friends in a week, and I can't even feel comfortable with someone I've known for years. That someone makes a best friend in a week and I'm sure has mentioned that I'm a loser neet, as a relative they knew brought it up to me, saying "you have all the time in the world since you don't work", implying I can do anything I want with chronic fatigue syndrome. Fuck off!
Normies and Chad will never accept disability of others. If they hate ugly incels, they hate ugly disabledcels even more.
What will happen is they will forget you, and that's fine on my part, it's just when I have to see them that scars me.
I fucked myself over, not entirely of my own doing, but I'm definetly screwed socially. And CBT or the-rapist won't help something so ingrained.
The best I ever felt was being a neet alone for 2 months.
I actually got stuff done, and said probably four words the entire time. I was basically mute. I also became healthier and less faigued. How is that possible? Is the presence of others a burden on my cells?
If you tracked the number of words I speak in a week, it'd probably be 100 compared to over 1,000,000+ for my sisters and their boyfriends, who are even more talkative.
If they even suspect silence, they have to ask stupid questions or whistle to break it. I hate that.
All I want is silence and solitude forever.
Thank you, thank you, thank you!
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