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Story about my new job that's already fucked up.
I can see it happen in real time this go around. I've also been focusing on not staring this time. But, some woman I have to work with is acting uncomfortable around me yet again. I actually respected her work ethic however she thinks I'm into her. She's literally bald and looks like a fat ugly little boy.
The thought actually repulses me so how I sent that signal is beyond me. It's clear when she told me unsolicited about her partner, who's "visiting a foreign country". But she acted really uncomfortable around me from the start, awkward stuttering, fidgeting, tucking the hair she doesn't have behind her ear (instinctive). Giving me a creepy smile.
After naively trying to break the ice, ease the discomfort, and understand the situation, she completely avoids me. I asked her a couple questions, without trying to pressure her, and I joked that the reason she thought she always hears her name is because she's used to everyone shouting it for help after she made a comment. Her whole head turned beat red and her demeanor noticeably soured and became avoidant. It's quite obvious it's happening again by the way some are starting to look at me.
I finally hate women at this point. I desperately want to be a good person and be accepted. I really try not to be jaded. I have zero romantic interest in any female coworker. I try to be friendly, kind, helpful to everyone. I try to engage others without pretenses, be genuine, and not be a total loner but I'm still treated like a creep/monster and women are still freaked out by me. I'm damned regardless of my approach. If you lurkers out there want to know how an incel is made, that's how.
I must be hella autistic or physically repulsive or both for this to keep happening despite all my effort to be normal. I was hopeful I might fit in this time but of fucking course not. It's must be all my fault though, right? The misogyny I didn't have is shining through obviously.
I can see it happen in real time this go around. I've also been focusing on not staring this time. But, some woman I have to work with is acting uncomfortable around me yet again. I actually respected her work ethic however she thinks I'm into her. She's literally bald and looks like a fat ugly little boy.
The thought actually repulses me so how I sent that signal is beyond me. It's clear when she told me unsolicited about her partner, who's "visiting a foreign country". But she acted really uncomfortable around me from the start, awkward stuttering, fidgeting, tucking the hair she doesn't have behind her ear (instinctive). Giving me a creepy smile.
After naively trying to break the ice, ease the discomfort, and understand the situation, she completely avoids me. I asked her a couple questions, without trying to pressure her, and I joked that the reason she thought she always hears her name is because she's used to everyone shouting it for help after she made a comment. Her whole head turned beat red and her demeanor noticeably soured and became avoidant. It's quite obvious it's happening again by the way some are starting to look at me.
I finally hate women at this point. I desperately want to be a good person and be accepted. I really try not to be jaded. I have zero romantic interest in any female coworker. I try to be friendly, kind, helpful to everyone. I try to engage others without pretenses, be genuine, and not be a total loner but I'm still treated like a creep/monster and women are still freaked out by me. I'm damned regardless of my approach. If you lurkers out there want to know how an incel is made, that's how.
I must be hella autistic or physically repulsive or both for this to keep happening despite all my effort to be normal. I was hopeful I might fit in this time but of fucking course not. It's must be all my fault though, right? The misogyny I didn't have is shining through obviously.
