SuicideFuel Getting harder and harder to cope with loneliness

[SchrodingersDick]

I find each day to be harder than the last. I have less things to occupy my mind with. I go weeks without any touch, honestly can’t remember the last time I touched anyone that’s not a family member . I get panic attacks and sweat heavily at night laying in my bed , as my loneliness weighs heavy on me and I take an objective look at my life.. I’ve had a handful of acquaintances in my life, most when I was young .. and one or two friends in high school that lasted for about 2 years .. that’s it . I’m turning 25 soon , and for >99% of my existence, I’ve been alone in every way.. it’s just getting too hard to find meaning in anything . Can’t even watch movies anymore. I don’t want to moneymax anymore.. i really don’t want to do anything .. I find myself thinking about suicide more and more often .. just the thought of it is a good cope. I fear that if things don’t get better , I may never have the courage to end it and will spend another 50 years like this .. I really don’t know how to handle this . When I was a kid I had all these plans and this vision of how life was supposed to be .. nowadays a great accomplishment is going one day without a panic attack or suicidal thought, or thinking about my lost youth. I didn’t even get a chance to be young in this lifetime . I spent my youth alone in my room. Just my fucking luck . Everything has sucked from day one. I’m not having a good time.

I just take it an hour at a time now.. I hope something changes soon. I need to change something. I can’t be alone anymore. I feel it hurting physically. I feel like my biological being is ageing at a rate of a year per day. I feel like my brain is deteriorating . I can’t sleep unless I’ve been up for like 18+ hours and am suuuper tired , otherwise my mind races and I can’t fall asleep.. my days are like 28 hours long so I’m sometimes awake the whole night , sometimes the whole day... it’s all over the place .. I’m on heavy hair loss meds and I think I’m still going bald just from the stress alone.. ive never imagined that I could be Under this much stress, and be this empty, this (relatively) early in life.. my life is already over, and it never even started.

 

[Modus Coperandi]

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[rudolfhess]

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck

 

[Zesto]

Copy with Based City-Pop boyo.

 

[LDARBuddah]

it's
O V E R
V
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[Firefly]

Just join the discord server when ever you feel lonely

 

[IncelldomReading]

wish I could say things would get better but will they ever for any of us... the incel life has us all my friend... and as long as femoids act like they are... none of us are making it out ok

 

[The Abyss]

I'd hang around with you if you lived near in UK.

 

[LDARBuddah]

I'd hang around with you if you lived near in UK.

 

[manlet cUnt]

Just join the discord server when ever you feel lonely

@Ritalincel

 

[Lubricure]

find each day to be harder than the last. I have less things to occupy my mind with. I go weeks without any touch, honestly can’t remember the last time I touched anyone that’s not a family member . I get panic attacks and sweat heavily at night laying in my bed , as my loneliness weighs heavy on me and I take an objective look at my life.. I’ve had a handful of acquaintances in my life, most when I was young .. and one or two friends in high school that lasted for about 2 years .. that’s it . I’m turning 25 soon , and for >99% of my existence, I’ve been alone in every way.. it’s just getting too hard to find meaning in anything .

Except the panic attacks and sleep issues, I think that I feel the same. The problem is that also having realized that hoarding friends up to cope with loneliness is like playing videogames in the hope of fighting real life hardships. I tried to involve someone in constructive projects to make money and develop skill, but the problem is most people lack commitment (unless they see immediate results), want to waste their time and lose themselves in entertainment. So, I gave up and I went on alone. Even the occasional validation (in the form that they at least acknowledge your existence) from femoids feels like a brutal scam, just fake fakery with no biological value whatsoever. I´m not going to sugarcoat it, when I was a child I thought too my life would have become at least acceptable to be lived, but I was wrong. Aging worsens existing issues and things won´t change unless you moneymax, at a game changing level at least.

That´s just my point of view and I´m not going to judge anyone, but I wish you all the best in any case.

 

[Mitgoo62]

I find each day to be harder than the last. I have less things to occupy my mind with. I go weeks without any touch, honestly can’t remember the last time I touched anyone that’s not a family member . I get panic attacks and sweat heavily at night laying in my bed , as my loneliness weighs heavy on me and I take an objective look at my life.. I’ve had a handful of acquaintances in my life, most when I was young .. and one or two friends in high school that lasted for about 2 years .. that’s it . I’m turning 25 soon , and for >99% of my existence, I’ve been alone in every way.. it’s just getting too hard to find meaning in anything . Can’t even watch movies anymore. I don’t want to moneymax anymore.. i really don’t want to do anything .. I find myself thinking about suicide more and more often .. just the thought of it is a good cope. I fear that if things don’t get better , I may never have the courage to end it and will spend another 50 years like this .. I really don’t know how to handle this . When I was a kid I had all these plans and this vision of how life was supposed to be .. nowadays a great accomplishment is going one day without a panic attack or suicidal thought, or thinking about my lost youth. I didn’t even get a chance to be young in this lifetime . I spent my youth alone in my room. Just my fucking luck . Everything has sucked from day one. I’m not having a good time.

I just take it an hour at a time now.. I hope something changes soon. I need to change something. I can’t be alone anymore. I feel it hurting physically. I feel like my biological being is ageing at a rate of a year per day. I feel like my brain is deteriorating . I can’t sleep unless I’ve been up for like 18+ hours and am suuuper tired , otherwise my mind races and I can’t fall asleep.. my days are like 28 hours long so I’m sometimes awake the whole night , sometimes the whole day... it’s all over the place .. I’m on heavy hair loss meds and I think I’m still going bald just from the stress alone.. ive never imagined that I could be Under this much stress, and be this empty, this (relatively) early in life.. my life is already over, and it never even started.

all I want to say is your not alone keep talking to us incels we are the only ones who understand you.

 

[Lonelycel]

I'd hang around with you if you lived near in UK.

wanna hang around with me

 

[The Abyss]

wanna hang around with me

Where should we hang from, pick a tree.

 

[God'sGreatestRegret]

I wish I could give you some advice or encouragement but unfortunately I'm in a similar situation. If you ever want to talk, PM me. If you live in the UK, let's go to the movies or something.

 

[Passing]

Video games and porn

 

[Deleted member 13256]

I want to touch someone.

 

[GeneticDysfunction]

Just join the discord server when ever you feel lonely

Or get a hooker lol

 

[Firefly]

Or get a hooker lol

Paying for sex raises the value of women, that would be the same as giving free money to the killer who killed your family..

 

[GeneticDysfunction]

Paying for sex raises the value of women, that would be the same as giving free money to the killer who killed your family..

Well fap and cope or rope/rape/ER because life sucks bro

 

[VirtueSignaller]

It sounds like you have too much free time on your hands.You need to keep busy and set yourself goals. Start by getting your circadian rhythm in order. Having 28 hour days is contributing heavily to your depression. I had a period in my life where my sleep pattern was distorted and I felt twice as worse. Set an alarm to wake up at a reasonable time every morning. It will be hard at first but this is the first step. People in Scandanavia have killed themselves because they live in a part of the world that never sees daylight - this is a real issue.

The second step is to get your body physically healthy - exercise is scientifically proven to help and if you went for a 20 minute run I promise you will feel a bit better afterwards.

 

[notafed]

It sounds like you have too much free time on your hands.You need to keep busy and set yourself goals. Start by getting your circadian rhythm in order. Having 28 hour days is contributing heavily to your depression. I had a period in my life where my sleep pattern was distorted and I felt twice as worse. Set an alarm to wake up at a reasonable time every morning. It will be hard at first but this is the first step. People in Scandanavia have killed themselves because they live in a part of the world that never sees daylight - this is a real issue.

The second step is to get your body physically healthy - exercise is scientifically proven to help and if you went for a 20 minute run I promise you will feel a bit better afterwards.

what

 

[VirtueSignaller]

what

Ok let me say this again. Having a F***ed up sleeping pattern will contribute significantly to depression.

 

[Deleted member 3291]

cuddle your pillow before you sleep

 

[Deleted member 12355]

I don't know, I've accepted my place