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I'm hideously ugly from facial asymmetry from different lengths of jaw bone on left and right side of face. This has caused other problems that also contribute to me look hideous - crooked nose, protruding teeth on one side etc. Spoiler - its over. When was 16 sociopath Chad came up to me and said "your the ugliest guy I've ever seen btw and walked off".
The point of this is I'm not just unattractive I'm hideous. Many of you here are probably just unattractive (not to minimize here - this isn't much better) - short is unattractive, mild negative canthal tilt is unattractive, weak (but not overly receding) jawline is unattractive. However, extreme versions of unattractiveness are hideous.
I believe this is why some of my experiences are different from some other incels. This differs both in women and male attention. In this thread I only intend to discuss male but the tldr for female is if they do give me attention they either sneak a look at me or hold a look at me just to scowl at me if I make eye contact. However this isn't the thing I'd like to know your experiences on.
The experience of sociopathic chad when I was 16 is an example of this. Men, especially low iq men in my opinion, when seeing me like to stare at me and antagonise me. I think this comes from the disgust reflex where the human response to a disgust causing stimuli is contempt and the want to destroy (stomp) on it - when you see a bug your response is likely to be disgusted and either flee or smash it with an object
I think this explains what seems to be a disproportionate level of antagonism and violence towards me. I only left my house around 10 times over 3 months over summer due to how depressed I was and several of these involved scenarios like this. I left my house to move to uni (which was leaving house for first time in week or two) and on the way I stop to buy food at gas station. There was a man there around 6'5 probably, very muscular and chad face with tattoos and chain on (was white btw) who was leaning against wall while gas station attendees were cooking his food and while they were doing it they served me. The whole time I could see him out of the corner of my eye him staring at me. I ordered 2 cheese pasties, while they were putting them into paper bag he said in an aggressive voice "thank you" while looking at me suggesting that I should say "thank you" when I had already said please and would say thank you after I paid and walked away. I ignored him and waited until I had paid to say it then walked off with him still scowling at me out of corner of eye. I think its obvious the treatment of me here came from my face not my personality or hair cut. While getting back into car I see him get into his range rover and start blasting music with this retarded face the whole time and race out of the gas station. I think he was probably a drug dealer and this along with his general behaviour (not including how he treated me) suggests to me hes not a smart fella. That was 2 weeks ago.
I usually go out at night only if I can to avoid people. I went out just before dark today and had 2 similar experiences. I walk with hands in pockets and look forward but down slightly to avoid eye contact. Anyway was walking down street another guy similar MO with tattoos, same height as me though (5'10) muscular with tattoos (white) and chain again was walking toward me with girlfriend with plenty of space. He was smiling and talking when he saw me, he immediately changed from walking normally to walking like a gorilla (knuckle walking) with mean face and purposely walked closer to my side of the pavement so I had to slow and budge up to wall to get past where he left a gap between him and gf of at least 1.5 people.
Ok, must have been my haircut or my personality. Anyway go to shop and on way back. When I'm walking down the pavement I see a cyclist (white male, chadlite, probably 16-18) who's just gone onto pavement and he has to cross a side road to get past me to continue on pavement. I see this, look at him, make eye contact, look down and move as right as possible so he can get past as easily as possible. Instead of just cycling past me he angles bike toward me and does something like a "bark" and then yanks bike away to avoid hitting me - I thought I would be hit.
Do any of you have similar experiences of this. Do you agree with me this is likely due to my looks or do I need a new haircut.
Anyway on an end note, this is brutal as not only do women try to scowl at me for existing, every time I go out there is a very real risk of a man trying to put me down and instigated violence against me for also existing. It's over.
The point of this is I'm not just unattractive I'm hideous. Many of you here are probably just unattractive (not to minimize here - this isn't much better) - short is unattractive, mild negative canthal tilt is unattractive, weak (but not overly receding) jawline is unattractive. However, extreme versions of unattractiveness are hideous.
I believe this is why some of my experiences are different from some other incels. This differs both in women and male attention. In this thread I only intend to discuss male but the tldr for female is if they do give me attention they either sneak a look at me or hold a look at me just to scowl at me if I make eye contact. However this isn't the thing I'd like to know your experiences on.
The experience of sociopathic chad when I was 16 is an example of this. Men, especially low iq men in my opinion, when seeing me like to stare at me and antagonise me. I think this comes from the disgust reflex where the human response to a disgust causing stimuli is contempt and the want to destroy (stomp) on it - when you see a bug your response is likely to be disgusted and either flee or smash it with an object
I think this explains what seems to be a disproportionate level of antagonism and violence towards me. I only left my house around 10 times over 3 months over summer due to how depressed I was and several of these involved scenarios like this. I left my house to move to uni (which was leaving house for first time in week or two) and on the way I stop to buy food at gas station. There was a man there around 6'5 probably, very muscular and chad face with tattoos and chain on (was white btw) who was leaning against wall while gas station attendees were cooking his food and while they were doing it they served me. The whole time I could see him out of the corner of my eye him staring at me. I ordered 2 cheese pasties, while they were putting them into paper bag he said in an aggressive voice "thank you" while looking at me suggesting that I should say "thank you" when I had already said please and would say thank you after I paid and walked away. I ignored him and waited until I had paid to say it then walked off with him still scowling at me out of corner of eye. I think its obvious the treatment of me here came from my face not my personality or hair cut. While getting back into car I see him get into his range rover and start blasting music with this retarded face the whole time and race out of the gas station. I think he was probably a drug dealer and this along with his general behaviour (not including how he treated me) suggests to me hes not a smart fella. That was 2 weeks ago.
I usually go out at night only if I can to avoid people. I went out just before dark today and had 2 similar experiences. I walk with hands in pockets and look forward but down slightly to avoid eye contact. Anyway was walking down street another guy similar MO with tattoos, same height as me though (5'10) muscular with tattoos (white) and chain again was walking toward me with girlfriend with plenty of space. He was smiling and talking when he saw me, he immediately changed from walking normally to walking like a gorilla (knuckle walking) with mean face and purposely walked closer to my side of the pavement so I had to slow and budge up to wall to get past where he left a gap between him and gf of at least 1.5 people.
Ok, must have been my haircut or my personality. Anyway go to shop and on way back. When I'm walking down the pavement I see a cyclist (white male, chadlite, probably 16-18) who's just gone onto pavement and he has to cross a side road to get past me to continue on pavement. I see this, look at him, make eye contact, look down and move as right as possible so he can get past as easily as possible. Instead of just cycling past me he angles bike toward me and does something like a "bark" and then yanks bike away to avoid hitting me - I thought I would be hit.
Do any of you have similar experiences of this. Do you agree with me this is likely due to my looks or do I need a new haircut.
Anyway on an end note, this is brutal as not only do women try to scowl at me for existing, every time I go out there is a very real risk of a man trying to put me down and instigated violence against me for also existing. It's over.
