Genuinely how the fuck do I stay sober?

[trrrrrsarescary]

Autistic, have severe OCD, have noticeable tourettes which makes me pull weird faces, almost impossible to control, and I'm ugly and people stare at me and treat me poorly all time

I've decided I can no longer do kratom because it's started giving me insane anxiety and panic, and I can't go back to alcohol because I'll be morning drinking on an empty stomach again in no time and I'll end up back in hospital when it inevitably spirals out of control, I do not have access to weed because it's illegal and I have no social connections to be able to find a dealer

But sober life is soooo fucking miserable for me, I have constant nonstop panic attacks cuz my OCD, every stare and negative treatment cuts like a knife and hurts me so, so fucking much and gives me the most murderous thoughts, my tourettes is annoying as FUCK and downright excruciating at times, and my life is just flat out extremely lonely and boring, and this shit is why I drink and why I used kratom but I can't safely do that anymore

Wtf? Is this one of those situations where the rope is genuine the superior option

 

[Ambatukam Alone]

Autistic, have severe OCD

Literally me. Have you tried simple meditation techniques like focusing on sound/sight/feeling? At the time you focus on that shit you basically disappear, then you develop the ability to concentrate more and for longer. Highly based activity.

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

Nothing you can do
sadly

 

[Erenincel]

Nothing you can do
sadly

That's why I used to buy research chemicals online. But I'm from the EU and I don't want to mess around with it anymore because I'm too lazy.

 

[Pancakecel]

What strain of kratom do you use, it should be the red version, as thats for relaxation and peace.

Also, I combine kratom with phenibut, you should try that.

 

[Jeffery Epstein]

There are no easy solutions. You can go to rehab, but it's gonna be hell on earth.

 

[rxdeR]

Autistic, have severe OCD, have noticeable tourettes which makes me pull weird faces, almost impossible to control, and I'm ugly and people stare at me and treat me poorly all time

I've decided I can no longer do kratom because it's started giving me insane anxiety and panic, and I can't go back to alcohol because I'll be morning drinking on an empty stomach again in no time and I'll end up back in hospital when it inevitably spirals out of control, I do not have access to weed because it's illegal and I have no social connections to be able to find a dealer

But sober life is soooo fucking miserable for me, I have constant nonstop panic attacks cuz my OCD, every stare and negative treatment cuts like a knife and hurts me so, so fucking much and gives me the most murderous thoughts, my tourettes is annoying as FUCK and downright excruciating at times, and my life is just flat out extremely lonely and boring, and this shit is why I drink and why I used kratom but I can't safely do that anymore

Wtf? Is this one of those situations where the rope is genuine the superior option

nigga said how do i stay sober maybe stop drinking faggot