Since i was a kid and despite all my shortcomings i wanted to become a ship captain.
Sail the seas, travel all over the world and live a different life overall. The only way for me at the time to follow up on that career was to join in the marines wich i was also looking forward to. Always wanted to milcel, specially in such a renowned force like the marines and i know i would be completely capable of pulling it trough.... However, during my later teen years i developed severe myopia and as such i became automatically excluded from joining the marines (or any army/navy dept that isn't officecuckery) and as such i was not able to follow up on my dream...
It all happened too quickly so i was not able to really proccess it right, i was completely at a loss... I joined some degree in college out of cope and parental pressure and obviously ended up dropping out.
Since then i've lived a life of retail slavery and soul crushing demeaning jobs. All in complete solitude without the supporting pillar of a relationship, crushed by lost dreams and lack of affection.
I just wanted that career, give in my best without regrets in a subject that was my passion. Live a life of adventure. At this point i'm so crushed and miserable that if my country suddenly drafted me for some suicidal war i think it would be the happiest moment in my whole life. At least i would have died defying, even if extremelly painful.
I'm at cope's end
Sail the seas, travel all over the world and live a different life overall. The only way for me at the time to follow up on that career was to join in the marines wich i was also looking forward to. Always wanted to milcel, specially in such a renowned force like the marines and i know i would be completely capable of pulling it trough.... However, during my later teen years i developed severe myopia and as such i became automatically excluded from joining the marines (or any army/navy dept that isn't officecuckery) and as such i was not able to follow up on my dream...
It all happened too quickly so i was not able to really proccess it right, i was completely at a loss... I joined some degree in college out of cope and parental pressure and obviously ended up dropping out.
Since then i've lived a life of retail slavery and soul crushing demeaning jobs. All in complete solitude without the supporting pillar of a relationship, crushed by lost dreams and lack of affection.
I just wanted that career, give in my best without regrets in a subject that was my passion. Live a life of adventure. At this point i'm so crushed and miserable that if my country suddenly drafted me for some suicidal war i think it would be the happiest moment in my whole life. At least i would have died defying, even if extremelly painful.
I'm at cope's end
