i reject everything. life has no meaning, i hate everything, and everyone. i like to watch porn (bimbofoids are the best) im an addict. i give up. why do i have to try to live? i didn't even ask to be here in the first place i'm here literally out of pure chance. i dont like people, i actually have good social skills (i used to be a normie) i just dont talk to people bc i hate them, i genuinely dont like people. there's a difference between being 'oh no people' and 'ew people' and im the latter. I've been thinking for a while about killing someone, or something. an animal maybe. I've considered the possibility of going to petsmart to buy a mouse for $10 just to stomp on it w my doc martens. i dont give a fuck about most things, although i do give some fucks about other things. i dont wanna go to jail which is why i aint done nothing (and probably never will) i do want to commit suicide and been thinking about it for a long time, been to the hospital twice bc of it (once against my will, second on my own accord) ive been doing nothing but going to work, coming back from work, and playing videogames. i dont wanna do anything i have no aspirations for anything. i just wanna give up sit inside my room forever and wait to die. im such a loser, a pathetic loser. why would anyone ever want to be around me. the only thing keeping me alive is my cowardice to kill myself. i hate this society, i hate this world. but why? u know that meme of being the last pick during pe soccer? that's what i feel like, but i'm the last pick of society. nothing is given, everything is deserved and i have to work towards the things i want, my goals, my dreams. the thing is i dont have any. no interest in romantic relationships. i personally think they dont exist. its all some bs. fuck you man fuck you.
