Was at my cousins and his friend came over, I was gonna leave before the friend arrived but my cousin kept asking me to stay for the friend for some reason, maybe to seem like he has more people to hang out with?
My cousin is the most NT guy I know, has hundreds of friends. But the way this guy switched personalities when his friend showed up is ridiculous. Like he put on a mask, he started glazing his friend super hard too saying how much he appreciates him. Fake laughing at anything his friend said. And he's not like a cuck begging for approval, my cousin definitely has a larger presence than his friend, he shouldn't have to over exaggerate his enthusiasm like this.
I could never act like this and I would never want to, it actually disgusted me a little bit, because he probably fake laughs at my jokes too (rarely). Being extremely non-NT has isolated me, but man am I glad I get to be myself, even if I come off as cold, distant or silent at times. If I don't care about what you're talking about I will stare at you and not respond at all and why should I. Also these people talk about every little detail of their day, they bring up the smallest events that have happened, the only time I ever talk about anything is if I experience something I'd tell people in a story years down the line, and since I mostly rot I usually have nothing to share with people, so I probably come off as a mute boring freak.
Maybe I'm coping and my cousin's way of interacting with people is the right way? But in my opinion being something you're not can never be right.
As gay as it sounds, you are the best just the way you are, people will eventually see through all the fronts you put on, or maybe I'm the only one who sees through them, in which case I'm cursed. Seeing through people's bullshit is so ounishing becuase I lose all will to interact with them, why would I interavt with an actor?
My cousin is the most NT guy I know, has hundreds of friends. But the way this guy switched personalities when his friend showed up is ridiculous. Like he put on a mask, he started glazing his friend super hard too saying how much he appreciates him. Fake laughing at anything his friend said. And he's not like a cuck begging for approval, my cousin definitely has a larger presence than his friend, he shouldn't have to over exaggerate his enthusiasm like this.
I could never act like this and I would never want to, it actually disgusted me a little bit, because he probably fake laughs at my jokes too (rarely). Being extremely non-NT has isolated me, but man am I glad I get to be myself, even if I come off as cold, distant or silent at times. If I don't care about what you're talking about I will stare at you and not respond at all and why should I. Also these people talk about every little detail of their day, they bring up the smallest events that have happened, the only time I ever talk about anything is if I experience something I'd tell people in a story years down the line, and since I mostly rot I usually have nothing to share with people, so I probably come off as a mute boring freak.
Maybe I'm coping and my cousin's way of interacting with people is the right way? But in my opinion being something you're not can never be right.
As gay as it sounds, you are the best just the way you are, people will eventually see through all the fronts you put on, or maybe I'm the only one who sees through them, in which case I'm cursed. Seeing through people's bullshit is so ounishing becuase I lose all will to interact with them, why would I interavt with an actor?
