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I hate being a virgin
I think I’ve permanently ruined my self esteem remaining a virgin into my 20s. I’ve never gotten much male attention but the little I have was from men that just wanted sex and didn’t care about me. I’ve always wanted sex and love. Sometimes I fantasize about having sex with any man just to get it over with but I know I would be disgusted with myself and the man would just use me and move on to someone else, I know it would ruin my self esteem even more to know I’m not relationship worthy. It just seems impossible for me. I barely leave my house and feel depressed 90% of the time.
I honestly hate socializing, I hate if people (male or female) look at me too long. I hate eye contact. I feel too ugly to be looked at. I hate that we live in an extremely sexual society with pop stars like Sabrina carpenter singing about fucking different men and acting out a different sex position on stage every concert and asking the audience have they ever tried this one!!??. I hate the fact that this kind of bullshit is what people consider and cool and trendy.
I feel like a fucking child for being half way done with my 20s and still being a virgin. It literally makes me feel like I’m not a real adult. Other women constantly remind me how abnormal I am and make jokes about how no one wants inexperienced women. I feel so lost and like no one can relate to me. I’ve heard people say that losing their virginity at 17 or 18 was late on losing it, then what the fuck will I be??
